While my Daddy is not a perfect man, who is, I have come to know him and love him beyond measure. He is perfectly imperfect!
My Daddy was not around much as I was growing up and even when he was around he didn’t pay much attention to us kids. Once he and my Mom got a divorce, it was like he had just disappeared from the planet. I never understood why he would not reach out to his children. For a long time, I thought it was my fault because I was the baby. I have an older sister and an older brother that I grew up with. But me being the youngest I felt like I had ruined his life, and his marriage to my Mother, and that’s why he had left us all.
I, now, know that it was not my fault.
NO CHILD SHOULD BLAME THEMSELVES FOR THEIR PARENTS DIVORCE!
In trying to locate him as teenager my Mother helped me by taking me to the local police department and giving them his information, which was a dead end, because they wouldn’t help. I even reached out to my “Granny”, his Mom, for help but she too was a dead end. I found out later that she did in fact know where he was and even knew how to get in touch with him but he had instructed her not to share any of his information with any of us. The only information she eventually told me was that my Daddy had remarried and moved to another state. I felt like he chose a new family over his own. I was so heart broken!
A few years passed by and, at this time in my life, I was now 16 years old. I got a phone call that my Pepaw (my Daddy’s Dad) was nearing the end of his life and if I wanted to see him alive, I needed to get there asap. So my Uncle Gary, whom was living with us at the time, took me to the hospital where my Pepaw was at but by the time we arrived, he had already passed away.
While there, I seen my Daddy and his wife, whom was a “friend” of my Mom’s years back, for the first time in I don’t even know how many years at this point. I am not sure that I can even explain all of the emotions that poured over me at that very moment as I stared them in their eyes. Honestly, I don’t even remember if or what I said to him in that moment. I’m sure we spoke but it had to have been brief. I was so overwhelmed with emotion that I had missed getting to tell my Pepaw bye plus seeing my Daddy during that moment for the first time, that I have no memory of us even speaking. My only memory is that I seen them at the hospital.
Strange in deed but my Daddy did eventually come back into our lives once he divorced, yet again.
Anyway, jumping ahead many years, my Daddy is now one of my best friends in the whole wide world! He is an over the road truck driver of many years and lives with my husband and I when he takes his monthly days off.
I couldn’t imagine life without him now. The relationship that God has allowed me to have with him in my adult life has, by far, made up for the loss of him not being in my life as a child.
I am so thankfully grateful to God that I have my Daddy by my side now. AS believers, God is so good in how He works things out in our lives. Sometimes it’s years out before we reap the benefits from our trials but eventually we see why we had to go through the pain and sufferings in order to get to where we are in our walk with the Lord. I give Him all of the glory.