The “old me” came out today, and I am so mad at myself for allowing it!! I let my flesh get the better of me while attempting to do something that should have been so simple to do but wasn’t. I used words I do not even like anymore. I wanted to literally destroy my refrigerator and buy a new one that we can’t even afford to do right now. (🤣 it’s funny to me now) I texted David and told him I was fixin’ to destroy our fridge!

Those who know me in my flesh, before Jesus, know of my struggle with anger. It has been my biggest demon to overcome after I surrendered my life to Jesus Christ in 2009. And I have overcame that demon but I am forever human this side of Heaven so when I allow my fleshly self to intervene and take over, I take my eyes off of Jesus and focus on me, myself and I and that is when I fail Him every single time. Today, even though only for a short few minutes, I gave into the demons, and I hate that!! Roman’s 7:19-25 began echoing through my mind and calmed right back down to level headed.

While I was by myself during my short temper fit, I still gave into the Louann that I have been redeemed from. Something I try my best to NOT DO every single day now!

I have asked God and David (words used in text) to forgive me. And I will forgive myself to allow myself grace. However, it has been such a reminder that we literally must die to ourselves every single day, even moment by moment, as not allowing our flesh to take over what belongs to God. Our bodies are His temples, 1 Corinthians 3:16-17 & 2 Corinthians 6:16-18. Every moment of every single day is a struggle when we allow our flesh to take over.

Thank You, Jesus, for Your grace and mercy! For Your forgiveness when I fail you. Help me to continually overcome myself, my selfish desires and wants, daily and moment by moment. In Jesus’ Name, I pray, Amen!