Dining Out

Finally A Date Night

Our first official “date night” for 2020 was at a Chilis and man was it delicious! I ate every single bite on my plate and that’s rare for me. We even topped off with a shareable slice of cheesecake!

First off let me just say it was so nice to be able to officially “eat out” in a restaurant again! This was the first time in over two months that we’ve been able to “dine in” in Texas.

It was very strange though!

The parking lot had an area designated for pick up only, which left about half for dine in parking. Getting take out to go has been the ONLY way to eat out at all for quite some time now.

We didn’t think much of how the parking lot was set so we just parked where we could and walked inside, not knowing what to expect once we got in there. Governor Abbott has okayed Texans to dine out once again as long as the proper steps are followed for safety and to slow the spread of the Coronavirus.

When we walked in, a young guy met us at the inside door and stopped us from going any further. He was wearing a mask and gloves with paper and pen in hand. He took our name and cell number and said we’d have to wait out in our vehicle because they aren’t allowing anyone to wait in the waiting area inside for now. Understandable I guess givin the ways of the world right now. He said they’d text us when a table for two opened up and we could come back inside then. So we gave him our info and went back to our truck. We waited right at ten minutes, not bad, then we got the text that it was our turn.

So off we go back inside for our wonderful date night supper.

The feeling in the air when we walked in was so strange! They didn’t have a lot of staff that we could see. They had every other table taped off with an x in red tape that covered the table tops. The music wasn’t as ear piercing loud as normal either. I guess because there wasn’t enough chatter happening to echo and bounce off the walls for them to drown out with the music like they’d normally have to.

Every person working was wearing a mask and gloves. You could tell even the staff was uncomfortable and uncertainty loomed over the entire place while signs of appreciation, just for the ability to be working, glistened from their smiles.

We were seated in a booth and our waitress quickly came over and handed us ONE paper menu and stated that they are only giving one menu for every two people and then they toss it into the trash. She was so very nice in explaining their “new normal” as she handed us our drinks and silver ware packets. But she did say she didn’t truly understand the need for it all.

Once we got our appetizer, the salsa dish was served in a “throw away” container. It was just weird! LoL!

Of course we ALL know why these things have changed but we don’t all UNDERSTAND the why. It makes little to no sense to so many of us, including me, why the government is being so controlling in that they are keeping everyone living and feeling so fearful to even touch a menu. It’s risky, yes, but not any riskier than it always has been when it’s virus season, in my opinion.

Anyway, our waitress handled herself very well even though she told us how uncomfortable she was having to wear the mask and use the gloves. The mask makes it hard for so many of us to breathe comfortably while wearing and the gloves do absolutely nothing in stopping the spread, when they aren’t changing them after touching each and every object, so what’s the point? It’s doing more harm than good. They could just as easily use the hand sanitizer more often than to use the gloves that they aren’t changing often enough. She told us that she knew it was for her own protection so she would gladly wear it if it meant she could work and make some much needed money.

Anywho, we had a nice quiet dinner inside a restaurant that we got to leave the mess behind at. Plus, we did NOT have to cook it!

God is Good. All the time!

Texas is slowly but safely beginning to open back up and we couldn’t be more proud!

Dreams

Do you believe that dreams mean something? I know some people that do and some people that don’t. Some dreams are so real sometimes that I’ve woke myself up, more than once, crying real tears. Tonight I had a strange one. It seemed so real during the dreaming time that when I finally woke up, or got woken up I should say, it’s left me scratching the top of my head wondering what it means.

I wonder why we dream at all? Are they significantly purposeful ya think? Do they truly have meanings behind them?

Most nights I don’t have any dreams at all. Some nights I’ll have several in one night. Then there’s those that leave such an impression that it keeps me awake for a while before I can go back to sleep. Then there’s the very few that have left me thinkin on them for days on end.

Tonight it was one of those that’s got me thinkin, staying awake talking to God, and now writing, typing actually, it down for y’all to ponder with me.

Today was like any other day I suppose. My husband and I spent the day together. He went to town this morning to have the oil changed in our car but was back home before I woke up. He’s an early riser ALL THE TIME! I, on the other hand, enjoy sleeping in. I don’t like to be woke up. I’d rather sleep until my body decides it’s had enough rest for one day. Once I did wake up though, we did our usual just hangin out around the house together kinda day. He even cooked us a wonderful supper this evening. We didn’t watch anything out of the norm on tv. Every Friday and Saturday night we watch Live PD then go to bed.

I can’t think of any reason to have the kind of dream that I had, especially to have been woken up by my husband. He said I was hollering for him so loudly that it woke him up. In my dream I know I was trying to yell and couldn’t but I didn’t know it was a dream until he woke me up.

We have two recliners side by side in our living room and, in my dream, I was still in mine but my husband had already laid down. In our bedroom we have a small window unit in and I knew I’d need to holler loud enough for him to hear me over the unit so I was trying to scream but nothing was coming out. It was so weird! It was like I was out of my body hovering over myself and I could see everything so clearly. I was in my recliner and the enemy himself was holding me down and covering my mouth. My entire body was like jello. I couldn’t move! I couldn’t talk! And I sure enough couldn’t scream! I kept trying. I tried to get up only to be shoved back down. I was trying to lift my arms and they literally, from the top view, looked like an episode of Sponge Bob Square Pants where his arms were just wavy. I had no control over them. I finally began trying to shout rebukes in the name of Jesus and I slowly began to regain control over myself. I began to sing “Jesus Loves Me” as loud and mumbling as possible. The more I said Jesus and sang out loud, even though my words weren’t clear, the less the enemy had control over me. I was FINALLY free enough to stand to my feet. Once I stood up I said “Satan you must flee from me IN THE NAME OF JESUS because you have no control over me” and just like that, he fled. Then I began yelling for my husband again and that’s when he woke me up because he heard me in real life yelling his name. He asked if I was alright and told me I must’ve been dreaming then he went right back to sleep and I can’t.

I don’t know how to interpret dreams but there was one man in the Bible named Joseph that could. I wonder what he’d tell me my dream meant?

Frustrating Day

My morning started off pretty good. My husband and I got up and prepared to head out for the hour and a half trip to see my Rheumatologist but we were quickly halted when my husband found that our water heater had been leaking. Thankfully he seen it before we had a complete mess on our hands. The drain pan was almost to the rim full of water. It would not have made it another week until he got back so, after a few calls, he got in touch with a plumber that could replace it TODAY! WooHoo, thank ya Lord! So we gather what info we need from the old one in order to buy a new one.

We finish getting ready to go and head out.

Next stop, Dr office.

That appointment was also a frustrating ordeal. First my husband wasn’t allowed to even go inside with me, due to this covid19 crap, then the lab tech chased a vein in my right arm for a good five minutes before deciding to try my left arm for a good vein. Of course she got it the first stick only for something goofy to happen and her wind up having to chase that vein too for some reason. BUT she was finally able to get her three tubes of blood from that arm so that’s good. The tech was very nice and apologetic during it all, which I greatly appreciated, so that was helpful in keeping my frustration at a minimal. I even told her it was fine, no need to apologize because it just happens that way some times and she appreciated my understanding.

Next stop is Lowe’s for our brand new water heater. So thankful that we had the means necessary in order to purchase a new one but this too took longer than expected. The gentleman that helped us was very nice and LOVED to chit chat. After finally getting what we needed the nice gentleman even helped my husband get it outside and into the back of our pick up.

So, off we go for our journey back home because the plumber we were able to get in touch with will have his “hands” to meet us there. Once the two gentlemen got the tank drained and outside, they began the install of the new one. BUT, you guessed it, they have some unexpected issues with the install and it is now going to take way longer than expected to complete the job.

Thankfully, once they are complete and outta here, all is well once again.

UNTIL it isn’t.

As I began to clean up the mess, not a big one, left behind from the job that has taken several hours to complete, I find that the new water heater is now leaking. I call the plumber and after a few “discussions” on a few different calls, we both agree that it’ll be fine to wait til morning for them to come back and see what’s happening now.

So my husband is back where he needs to be for work and I am off to bed to begin my morning in the morning, once more, with the water heater situation.

Moral of this story you may ask……..I just felt like sharing part of my very frustrating day with y’all and also to share that SATAN DID NOT WIN TODAY!!

I’m now off to lay my frustrations down at the feet of Jesus and have a great night of peaceful rest in spite of my frustrating day.

Hopefully y’all can do the same and have a good night!

My helper

“Stache”

As I continue working from home, my cat decided to “help me.” He loves boxes and knows this is off limits but this morning, he just couldn’t help himself.

“Hope Rising” Live Concert

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God Is Good

Have you ever wondered if God was paying attention to you and what’s going on in your life? Have you ever felt left out or ignored by Him? Boy, I sure have and not that long ago either.

There are times when I am just so unsure of anything and everything that is happening in and to me in life that it’s a struggle to even get out of bed of a morning.

But God y’all. But God is always working, even when we don’t see it.

Looking back at the most recent events in my life, there is no possible way to deny that God has been working the entire time. Scripture tells us what Jesus said to the Jews in John 5:17 (AMP). “But Jesus answered them, “My Father has been working until now [He has never ceased working], and I too am working.””

What a reassuring statement.

So many times we sit back and say we trust Jesus but our actions show otherwise. This is not pleasing to God or ourselves. We must always show that we trust in our Lord, even in times of struggle and ignorance.

My husband was laid off, with little to no warning, just a couple of months ago. We were panicked and unsure of what to do. We have to have income coming in to support our household expenses. I work but it’s only part time. That’s not nearly enough to carry us.

Thankfully God provided! And just in time too. Gods timing is always the perfect timing.

John 14:1 AMP, again with Jesus talking, says “Do not let your heart be troubled (afraid, cowardly). Believe [confidently] in God and trust in Him, [have faith, hold on to it, rely on it, keep going and] believe also in Me.”‬‬

My husband was able to get unemployment rather quickly, which is very rare. We had our first check within two weeks. And I was able to get more hours during the exact time frame that we needed, before being dropped back down to part time.

Totally God there y’all.

My husband began a new job April 1, making more money than he was and with the best benefits we’ve ever had before.

God had to remove my husband from his old job, use the six full weeks of unemployment to prepare him for the exact timing that God had set for him to begin a brand new job, in a totally new area, with all new people. And he’s loving it.

Sometimes change is good so keep an open mind when changes occur. Ask God what He wants you to do. God was working in our lives behind the scenes the entire time and He continues to do so every moment of every day.

God is so good y’all! All the time.

National Unicorn Day

Happy Unicorn Day

What!?! Who knew that April 9th was national unicorn day? I sure didn’t and I’m a lover of all things unicorn! I even have a unicorn tattoo on my ankle!

Anyone else love unicorns as much or more than me? Share your reply/comment below.

Social Media

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Thanks everyone!

Peace and Blessings!

Relationship

Which track this time?

What does one do that feels like they’ve done everything humanly possible to make a relationship work yet it continues to fail? Ya know relationships fail all the time and people just hop on a plane or in a car and leave as to avoid admitting failure and repairing the damage.

Let me just say, it’s easier to let go of some relationships than it is to let go of others. I’ve let go of a few relationships in my life to avoid letting them, or rather me allowing them, to have any control over me and my behavior. Sometimes it’s just best to walk away or even let them walk away, but it’s never easy to walk away from your kids without putting up a “fight”. But there comes a time when there’s just no fight left in you and you fall to your knees in tears begging God to help you. You find yourself asking God what you’re doing wrong. You find yourself having to take a step back and simply (not so simple) allow Gods will to be done and you do absolutely nothing but continually pray.

So after lots of prayers and petitions to God, this is what He’s told me multiple times is the best way to handle it. The best way for me to handle this particular situation is to not handle it at all. I have to let go and let God handle it once and for all.

2 Timothy 2:23-26 (ESV) says:

Have nothing to do with foolish, ignorant controversies; you know that they breed quarrels. And the Lord’s servant must not be quarrelsome but kind to everyone, able to teach, patiently enduring evil, correcting his opponents with gentleness. God may perhaps grant them repentance leading to a knowledge of the truth, and they may come to their senses and escape from the snare of the devil, after being captured by him to do his will.

I’ve come to the conclusion that there comes a time when we have to make hard decisions, even when it seems like the hardest decision you’ll ever have to make, for ourselves. Decisions that we know will effect us for a long period of time. Decisions that hurt our hearts so badly that our chest physically hurts. Decisions that are for our own protection. Decisions that will prevent us from giving into the foolishness of controversy. Decisions that may have people you love so deeply having nothing to do with you. Decisions to simply guard your own heart from breaking so badly that it seems in repairable. Decisions to not allow the enemy to use anyone to cause you to fall back into your old self.

Once you feel like you’ve gone around the same “mountain” so many times and never see new scenery, it’s time to finally just jump the train track if you will. It’s time to sit back and truly, 100%, turn it over to God. It’s okay to protect yourself. It’s okay to protect your own heart and your own emotions from the same ole train wreck that always happens when you let your guard down.

God is our Father and He wants to protect us from hurt and harm but more often than not, we bring it upon ourselves then we get mad at God and ask Him why HE ALLOWED THIS to happen to us. He didn’t! We did! And we have to stop it. We must finally break the cycle. We have to decide that it needs to stop and it needs to stop right now. Only then can God begin a work in the situation and help to mend things or cause us to move on from it until they decide they want to mend it as well.

No relationship of any kind can be one sided and have success. Relationships of any kind takes pride and hard work to keep it humbly unique in unity. We must each choose to be happy with one another, no matter our flaws. God can change anyone’s heart but He gives us the decisions as to what we’re gonna do with it. Are we gonna live for Him or the world? Are we gonna love one another like Jesus does or are we gonna “love” one another like the enemy does. The choice is ours.

I’ve had a relationship with someone that I love beyond measure, that’s been breaking my heart and causing me such stress and anxiety, for quite some time. It has been such an on again, off again type relationship for far to long now. One minute I’m “loved and appreciated” and the best person and the next minute I’m hated and despised for who knows what. I just can’t play that game any longer! I have prayed and prayed and prayed, and will continue praying for how ever long it takes, for our relationship to be what God intended for it to be. Through so many prayers, tears, anger, love, worry, and just every possible emotion a person can feel, I now know that God has given me permission to sit back and simply “be still” (Psalms 46:10).

For years now, I’ve been trying to make things work out for my own selfish desires of wanting to continue a relationship even though it’s been such a train wreck of a relationship. I have done what ever it took so that I could have some kind of contact with them, even though I knew the happiness would be short lived. I have done everything within my own power to keep things running smoothly. The problem is that no matter what I do or say, it’s wrong. No matter how much I’m “loved”, it’s only temporary. But I now can see what the key problem is. It’s that I’ve been doing things in MY OWN power to try and fix this relationship but I can’t fix it, only God can. Only God can change the hearts of any man/woman. I do not have the power to “fix” anything, only the power of God can do that.

God has been telling me for a very long time now to leave it alone and do absolutely nothing but my own selfish desires, from missing them and loving so deeply that my heart literally aches from the lack of communication, that I always gave into those desires and reached out only for it to end, the way it always does, in more heart ache and pain. Clearly I haven’t been obedient in being still and letting God have complete control. This train wreck has been on again and off again for more than two years now and every time I let my guard down and think, “alright this is it, we’re finally on the mend and beginning to heal from previous angry hurts we’ve all dealt one another, it ends in a train wreck once again.

So I finally have given up. I’ve come to my whits end. I’m not saying it’s all them but I can’t keep being the only one to apologize and admit failure. I can’t keep giving it everything I’ve got and get nothing in return. I can’t keep riding on this roller coaster ride of emotions and continuing on with the disrespect and ignorance of it all. My heart can’t take it anymore! As much as I love them, I am willing to let them go since that seems to be what they want any way. I mean love is proven by actions not mere words and their actions have proven time and again that no relationship is wanted unless I do what they want when they want. If they get their way, they are happy. If not, I’m blocked and disowned. It’s just to much anymore. Life is to short to live like that.

Proverbs 9:7-9 (ESV)

Whoever corrects a scoffer gets himself abuse, and he who reproves a wicked man incurs injury. Do not reprove a scoffer, or he will hate you;
reprove a wise man, and he will love you. Give instruction to a wise man, and he will be still wiser; teach a righteous man, and he will increase in learning.

Just these past few months have I been able to truly let go and let God. I was making sure to say I love you once in a while, even though it was completely ignored almost every single time, but it’s time to be obedient to God THE FATHER. It’s time to trust Him completely with this entire situation. I just can’t take the pain any longer.

I’m learning to love them from a distance and that I must be okay with that. Some days are harder than others to fight myself as to not send a text just to say I love you but they know I love them, that’s never been an issue. I’ve made sure they know I love them and they just don’t seem to care. They’ve made that perfectly clear multiple times.

I will always love them………even if only from a distance.

GRANDS

My Son and 1st Grandson

My husband and I are officially grandparents y’all! Our son and daughter in law gave us a beautiful grandson this morning. God could not have made him anymore perfect!

Due to Coronavirus, and my husband having been laid off for 6 weeks now, we weren’t able to be there with them but, thankfully, our Son messaged us after and has sent us a few pictures.

We hope to be called “Tootsie and Pop” by all of our Grands that we get in life but they will choose and we will be happy with what ever they decide.

Laid Off

“Lozowski Strong”

Well it’s been a, some what, rather long five weeks y’all.

On February 17th 2020, my husband David was laid off from his job. His lay off had nothing to do with the Coronavirus. He went to work that Monday morning and worked two hours before being told he was being released. I’d like to say it was a shock to both of us but, unfortunately, we seen the writing on the wall long before that day got here. We would pray daily for God to allow David to be able to keep his job all the while knowing in our hearts that it wouldn’t be safe for very long.

David was employed by a rather small company and they had already let a few people go several weeks prior. Most of the employees are family in some way or another, not all of them, and those that aren’t are either contract labor or is close friends to someone who is. So it was a given that he would be let go at some point if things didn’t pick up soon for them.

Honestly, I feel a bit of relief and like God allowed it to go on as long as it did until He was finished preparing David for the changes that are coming.

My husband absolutely HATES major changes y’all and God knows this! David will stay in unhappiness and complete misery before he will let go of a job and move on or until God forces him to move on. So I honestly believe that God made sure that David had gotten a belly FULL of the stress and worry from having to do without what he’d need, every single day, just to do his day to day operations on that job. God made sure that he’d be as okay as a family man can be, with being let go and forced to move on. Although David left on good terms, he has truly learned who his real friends are out of all of them through this difficult time. I think he’s had a realization of a few people there that he thought were his friends in finding out that they really aren’t his friends at all. That’s a hard pill to swallow for any one, especially as long as David had worked with some of those guys.

Anywho, moving on…

David and I are Christians. We have complete faith and trust in God Almighty but it doesn’t prevent us from having stress and worry that comes with living life in this crazy world. We try to never doubt God and His abilities or powers for how He always takes care of us, especially in how He will provide for us daily, because He always has even in this exact position of David having been laid off before. The past few years have been a lot of difficult trials with Davids job. But that’s a story for a different blog some time.

I think I can speak for the both of us when I say that the longest and most difficult part of his five, now beginning of six, weeks off is the fear that comes from the enemy of the unknown.

We don’t know what’s to come. We don’t know for sure what’s gonna happen next, especially now that the entire nation is under quarantine. We don’t know how we will manage the day to day operations of life now. We don’t know how much longer we can stand one another on a 24/7 basis when we are both used to having a few hours each and every day to ourselves, even though I wouldn’t want to be cooped up with anyone else 24/7 except my wonderful husband David. He’s truly a God send.

While I could go on and on with what David and I “don’t know”, I’d rather turn my focus and attention to more positive thoughts. I’d rather think of what we “do know” and focus on the “BUT GOD” parts of it all. With each and every day that comes and goes there is a God and He remains in control of everything.

So I’ll turn your attention to what we DO KNOW. We do know that He has provided a wonderful new job for David and that this new job comes with some pretty awesome benefits and better pay. Both of which are better than what he’s ever had with any other job. We do know that it’s a blessed and welcomed change for the both of us. We do know that God is gonna work out the living arrangements that we are faced with due to this wonderful new job. We do know that our, almost, 24 years of marriage is strong enough to handle the distance and what ever else God chooses to bless us with through it all. We do know that God continues to provide us both with courage, wisdom, knowledge, and the finances to hold on to what He’s blessed us with already. We do know that God won’t EVER let us down. We do know that, no matter our circumstances, God will love us and care for us unconditionally. I’ll have more we do knows as each day passes and we get closer and closer to this amazing new beginning for us. And let me say this too; God gets all of the glory for what we have, and all that we continue to be blessed with, from our finances down to each and every item that we possess. David and I both thank Him every single moment of every single day for it all.

So, while we are human and struggle daily, we DO KNOW that we will be okay through all of this because we will always be “Lozowski strong” TOGETHER, no matter how many miles we may be apart, as long as we keep God as our leader and guide.

We would appreciate and covet any and all prayers for our obedience, strength, and guidance as we live this out and continue trusting and leaning on God moment by moment and day to day. Thanks and God bless to each and every one of you.

Covid-19

Make shift office

Who else is tired of being quarantined already!?! I’ve had my fill of it too. However, it’s very important to remember that in any and all situations there’s a positive some where but most of the time we have to dig for it to find it.

So, here’s my positive.

On the bright side, I get to work from home. That’s pretty cool actually. I get to spend more time with my husband, I’ve had LOTS of time with him lately (next blog), and love on my animals all while working and getting paid.

God uses ALL things for good. Romans 8:28

Stay safe and clean out there y’all. Wash! Wash! Wash! Those hands. Cover! Cover! Cover! Those sneezes and coughs. Stay! Stay! Stay! In groups of ten or less.

And remember, this to shall pass.

Young Living

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Keyboard Warriors

Found this pic online and thought how true it really is…

Isn’t this photo depicting such real truth in today’s society!?!

So many people use online platforms to be such “lions” while in reality they are mere “kittens”.

It’s comical how many people actually say hateful and mean things while making threats when they are online and hiding behind a keyboard but when met face to face, they act as if they don’t even know who you are OR they will pretend to be your friend. It’s happened to me so many times that I’ve lost count.

Don’t be fake!

If you can’t treat me in person the way you portray our relationship is online, whether it be good or bad, then leave me alone all together. I don’t like to me treated one way when face to face, talked about in another way behind my back, yet your social media posts portray yet a third and different view of our relationship. There’s no point in being two faced or three/four faced. Meaning you’re wearing more than one face in this one relationship.

If you can’t be honest with me and treat me like an adult, while showing me the respect that everyone deserves in any relationship, then don’t pretend to “love” me just to make yourself “look good” to others.

With friends like that, you don’t need enemies because they are already in your midst.

Rainbow

Maui Rainbow

I captured this rainbow while in Maui y’all. It’s rare that I catch one where I have both ends of one in the same shot.

I absolutely love the edit I did and how gorgeous this photo turned out to be. I wanted to share it so many could see it’s beauty.

Deception

“Fake” presentation of yourself and lies, of any kind, are very hurtful and deceitful to those that love you the most. Once you’ve been “busted”, it makes it so difficult for those closest to you to even trust you on the simple things in life. It also puts so much doubt in their minds every time you simply talk to them as to what else are you hiding and lying about. Is this real or are you just pretending and lying again? Is this another perception of yourself to continue to deceive those around you?

Once you have displayed such behavior, do not continue to “pretend” as if you’ve done nothing wrong once you’re “called out”. Own up to your deceit, especially once you’ve been called out on it more than once, and apologize how ever many times it takes. “Sweeping it under the rug” is never a good idea. It only allows the other persons hurt to fester and grow until one day they just explode with emotions and you’re left to wonder “what the heck just happened?”

It takes lots of time to correct and restore the deep hurt that you’ve caused in the relationship and to restore any trust that’s been lost from your behavior. Not that it can’t ever be built back up, but it won’t happen over night. Don’t expect to be forgiven so easily, especially if it’s happened more than once and over a long period of time. Forgiveness will come, but it won’t be made easy on you by the recipient.

Not a single person is perfect. Every one makes mistakes in life. That’s part of the growing up and growing old process. But to be called out on such deceitful behavior then you FINALLY admit to such deceit and say you’re empty “I’m sorries,” yet you continue to do what ever it was that you’ve “apologized” for anyway makes it even harder to forgive you because then it is a deliberate hurt, that you’re now aware of yet you’re doing willingly now, for unnecessary reasons. You know what you’re doing now and you are choosing to continue such lies and deceit anyway.

What kind of love is this? What kind of relationship is this? What else are you hiding and/or lying about? What else are you deceiving as truth? Every time you open you’re mouth, those questions will forever be in the back of their mind. You’ve broken the trust in more than one area of the relationship now and it’ll be difficult to get it all back again. What trust and faith that was had in you out of pure love and appreciation , will now have to be earned back piece by piece.

Admit to yourself who you are and what you’re doing. Admit to yourself WHOSE YOU ARE and BE HONEST!! It’s easier to own you’re own life and what you choose to do with it, than it is to live in secrecy and always wonder, not if but when, will I get caught. The only way things will ever be mended is to own up to your mistakes and just be the real and true you.

Deceit and lies ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS come to the surface. It might take a while but the “truth” ALWAYS gets found out.

The longer you lie and “pretend” to be someone you’re not, the harder it’ll be to be forgiven and trusted ever again. Once that rebuilt trust (from the same deceitful lies) has been broken more than once, it’ll take even longer to mend. The doubts will always be in the recipients mind. Every time you say or do something, the recipient will wonder as to whether or not what you’re saying and, or doing, is truth or more lies and hidden behavior. And you’ve got no one to blame it on but yourself.

Stay true to you!

Stay true to Christ!

Stay true to those that love you the deepest! Or risk losing them, piece by piece, forever.

Lies and deceit DESTROY any and every kind of relationship there in. Is it truly worth the risk? Is the relationship not valuable enough to ya to protect and just be yourself in? What kind of love is this on your part?

“You are who you run with” is the most often and one of the best pieces of advice that I share with others. If you’re being influenced, ya might outta find a new group of people to run with. After all, they aren’t the ones that you’re risking the relationship with.

In Awww

A Place Called Heaven by Dr Robert Jeffress

So I’m in a bible study group and this is the book we are doing our study over. I haven’t been able to keep up by the videos, due to missing for my travels, so I’ve been reading the book as I can to at least be able to engage with the group next time I’m able to attend.

Now keep in mind that I haven’t read this book daily. I only read (and do my writing) when I’m alone and it’s quiet from any tv noise or people talking because my mind has to stay focused on what I’m reading and or writing or I will just lose my thoughts and words on each page.

Anywho, if you’ve read my previous posts then you know that I am here in Maui for my first time ever. Tonight when I laid down, I decided to read a little while before going to sleep. As I’m reading along, I read this paragraph (in the pic above) from the book.

MIND BLOWN YALL! I was like, WHAT!!!!????

So I read it again, and then a third time, and then a fourth time. I know my mouth was wide open as I’m reading the paragraph each time while marveling in my mind just how amazing God is on His timing of things in my life.

I’m not one to believe in coincidences but rather I fully believe that God works in mysterious ways to show us that He is whom He says He is in His Word. He had this very moment set up for me to strengthen my faith in Him. I mean, only He could’ve known that I was ever gonna be in MAUI first of all, let alone in Maui while READING this very BOOK, get to this very paragraph, at this exact moment while I am laying on a bed in a condo IN MAUI.

God never ceases to amaze me. He blows my mind so often that I never know why it amazes so excitedly every time He does things like this. Just makes me giggle and smile! I can’t even stop smiling as I’m writing this to share with y’all 🙂

My mind is blown, once again, by the mighty works of our Lord and Savior.

God is so good y’all!! When you ask Him to reveal Himself to you, trust in Him to do it. Expect Him to answer your prayers. Only He knows what’s best for us. When you ask Him to do mighty works in your life, let Him. Be still and allow God to do what He does. He WILL show you who He is! He DOES keep His word! He WILL NEVER let you down! He WILL NEVER forsake you. He loves you like no other!

If you don’t know who God, Jesus, and The Holy Spirit are let me help you to learn about Him. It’d be my pleasure to read scripture to you or even with you. I do not and will not debate my beliefs but I will answer any questions for you about Him/Them that I can.

May God bless each and everyone of you.

Good night from Maui.

Maui Hawaii

Y’all I’m not sure how to describe Maui to those that’s never been here before. No matter where you turn there’s beauty. The sound of the ocean is absolutely mesmerizing to me. I love watching the waves splash against the black lava looking rocks. The sun here feels likes it’s 100 times hotter than the Texas sun (yes I know it’s the same one🌞) as the breeze blows just enough to keep you cool so that you don’t even feel it cooking your skin. I’d venture to say it’s my new favorite place out of the many places I’ve been blessed enough to adventure in.

Hawaii Bound

It’s finally here y’all…

My Aunt Carolyn and I fly out tomorrow for our Maui vacation together for ten days.

I’m so excited!

She and I always have such fun together on our trips, no matter how short or long the trip may be. We always seem to make one another laugh until we cry or cry until we laugh. We take lots of photos at every opportunity (which she hates), we eat food that we don’t get at home, and we always see things that we rarely get to see.

Once a year she and I go on a cruise called the “Rudy Cruise” together and occasionally she surprises me with an extra trip during the year. Last year she took me to Alaska and this year she’s taking me to Hawaii.

I’m so excited to get to see Hawaii in all its beauty. We plan to go whale watching while there. We also plan to enjoy the beach, the warm breezes, a luau, the flea market on Saturday, and simply enjoy the getaway over all as a whole.

I really do cherish our time together. She and I are so close that I call her my “Auntie Mom”. She’s one of the rocks that holds me up on the daily. We try to hold one another accountable and we can also just vent to each other about life and what bothers we may be burdened with. We continually pray for one another as we seek God in our daily lives. I don’t know what I’d do without her. I am very blessed and so very thankful that God strengthened our relationship the way He did at a time when I questioned many things about my life. Our relationship continues to grow and get stronger each and every day. My “Auntie Mom” is always there for me, as I am her, and I appreciate her more than she knows.

I would greatly covet and appreciate your prayers for our safe travels to and from as well as during our time we n the island. Also pray for us to continue to have fun makin more memories together, that are full of good and fun adventures, for many more years to come.

Thanks y’all.

May God bless you!