I found this prayer on Pinterest and wanted to share it on my blog for anyone that it might help.
Prayer
forgiveness
π΄πππ π»ππππ
πππππ ππ ππ ππππ ππππ ππ πππ π ππππ πππππ’! π½π πππ ππ ππππ ππππ ππ’π ππππ. πΏπππππ πππππ, πππ, πππ ππππ πππππ π ππ’ ππππ πππ ππππππππ ππππππ. πΈ πππ’π ππππ πππππππππ ππ π πππ π ππ’. πΈπ ππ πππππ ππππ ππ ππππππ π ππ πππ ππππ πππ πππππ πππππππππ. πΈππππππππ ππ ππππππ’ πππππππππππ πππ ππππππππππ ππ’ π πππππππππ ππ ππππππ.
πΈπ πππππ’π π ππππ ππ ππππππππππ’, ππ ππ πππ πππ ππ πππππππ πππππππππ, πππ πππ πππππππ, ππ ππππ π π πππ ππππ ππππ ππππππππππππππ πππ ππππππππ ππππ ππ ππ πππ π ππππ π π πππ ππππππ ππ ππππ ππ.
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πΏπππππ πππ πππππ. πΏπππππ πππ πππππππ. πΏπππππ πππ πππππ. πΏπππππ π πππ ππππ πππ πππππππ, ππππ πππππ π πππ π£πππ πππππππ πππ πππππ πππππππ. π±ππ πππππ ππ ππ πππππππππ ππ πππππππ πππ πππππππππ ππππ π’ππ’ππ πππππππ ππ’ π’ππ’ππ ππ π ππππππππ ππ πππππ “ππππππ” ππ’ π ππππππππ, ππππππππππ’ ππ ππ ππππ ππππππππ. π ππππππππππππ’ πππ ππππππππππ πππ ππππππ πππππ πππππππππ ππππ π πππ ππππ ππ ππ ππππ’ ππππππ ππ ππ ππππ’ππ ππππ ππππ πππ πππππ’.
π°ππ ππ’π ππππ’ πππ ππππ πΆπππ ππππππ ππππππ ππππ πππππππ ππ ππππππππ ππ πππππ ππππ ππππ π’ππ πππ πππππππ ππ’ πππππ ππππ πππ, ππππππππ£πππ πππππππ. ππππ ππππ’ πππ πππππ ππ ππ πππππ πππππππ π’ππ ππ πππ ππ πππππππ ππ ππππ ππππ π’ππ πππππ ππ πππ ππππ ππππ.
ππππππππ: πΈπ πππππππππ πππππ ππ ππππ ππ ππ ππππ, ππ ππππππππ’ ππ.
π½ππππ ππ ππ ππππππ ππ ππππ πππ ππππππ πππ πππππππ ππππ π’πππ πππππ ππππππ ππ πππππ ππππ. “πππ π΅ππππ” ππππππππ πππ πππππ ππ ππ πππ πππππππ ππ πππππππ πππππππππ. ππππ πππππ ππππππ πππ πππ ππππππ π’ππ πππ’π πππ πππππππ π’πππ ππ π πππππππππ.
πππππ πΆππ, πππππ πππ ππππππππ, πππππππ π·π π πππ πππππ πππππ ππ πππ πππππππ ππ. πΉππππ ππ ππ·π΄ πΎπ½π»π πππ ππ ππππ ππππ π πππππππ ππππ ππ ππππ ππππ π ππππ. π΄πππ πππππ ππππππ πππππππ πππ πππ’πππ π πππ ππππππ ππ ππ ππππππππ.
πππππ’π ππ πππ πππ’πππ ππππ ππππ πππππππππ ππππ ππππ; “π΅πππ ππ ππππ πππππ ππ π’ππ. π΅πππ ππ ππ πππ πππππ ππ ππ”. π³ππ’π ππ ππππππ ππππ ππππ ππππ ππ’ πππ ππππ ππππ πππππ ππππ’ππ πππππππ π’ππ. ππ πππ πππ ππππ πππ πππ π πππππ ππ πππ’ πππ ππππ πππππππ ππ πππ ππ π ππππ ππ ππππ.
ππππ’ πππππππ ππ πΉππππ π’πππ! π·π ππ πππ π ππ’ πππππ. π·π ππ πππππ! π·π ππ ππππ! πΉππππ ππ πππ ππππ’ π ππ’ ππ πππ π»πππ πΆππ; ππ·π΄ π»πΎππ³ πΆπΎπ³.
πΏπππππππππ ππ ππππππππππ πππ π π ππππ ππππππ πππ πππ ππ πππ’ π ππ’.
π·πππ π’πππ ππππ ππ ππππ ππ π’ππ ππππ ππ πππ πππ’.
π³πππ ππππ ππππ π ππππππππ ππππππ ππ ππππ ππππ π’ππ.
Bitterness
Did you know that bitterness is a legit emotion? I mean Iβve heard of it, of course, but never really understood it. And I still donβt. However, it is a true feeling that needs to be addressed in order to be able to overcome it. I will be studying more on this topic and hope to share some new insight into its true meaning and Gods way, through His word, on how to overcome it.
Stay tunedβ¦
Scripture and Prayer
Do you hate your life?
Someone told me they hate their life the other day. My response was well I donβt hate mine. I love my life! I really do.
Life is what you make of it. If youβre negative all the time and only focus on the negative things that happen every day then youβre going to think and produce negativity in everything you do and say. What youβre putting in, through tv, games, people youβre around, etc, if itβs rarely anything positive then you will only produce negative thoughts, behavior, and words say about yourself and to others.
I have told my kids their entire lives that you are who you run with because itβs so true. If you run with negative youβll produce negative. In every single situation, whether it be good or bad, there is ALWAYS positive. We may not always be able to find it in the moment, but itβs always in there. Negativity is easy to find. Positive is harder so we must seek it out.
So, no matter what life throws your way, choose to be joyfully happy and find the positive in each situation, instead of focusing on the bad stuff and reproducing that.
π Donβt Worry; Be Happy π It really is a choice we get to make for ourselves.
Mothers Day 2022
Motherβs Days for me are a bit different from the traditional get togethers in celebration of Mom. I am still appreciated just from a distance. I know without a doubt that I am always loved, even when they arenβt allowing me into their lives for one reason or another.
Like any other family, we donβt always see eye to eyeβ¦but God right!?! β₯οΈ God remains true to His promises so I just keep seeking for His Devine intervention and healing.
My babies and grand babies live thousands of miles away due to the military life theyβve chosen and I couldnβt be more proud of each one of them than I am today! And, while their dad and I didnβt choose this lifestyle for them weβve always encouraged ALL of our babies, even our βnotherβ babies, to chase their dreams but to always chase after Gods will for their lives rather than their own. My motto for them, since they were very young, has been βalways do your very best and let God do the restβ but no matter where life takes any one them, I will forever be their biggest supporter.
My husband and I are blessed beyond belief!
Itβs been a whileβ¦
Well I will be back at it, prayerfully. I took a long break from writing because what I want to write about, I think to my self that I probably shouldnβt. But it is my life and this is my blog so I can write about whatβs happening in my life right!?!
Gonna keep praying about how and what to say but I am for sure ready to begin writing, journaling, blogging again.
Hurt Heart
Words hurt and canβt be taken back as Iβve learned the hard way for most of my adult life. The closer with Christ I learn to walk/live the statement in the photo has proven to be more and more accurate. We know a true Christian by how they act, respond, talk, live, etc. Jesus was the only perfect human to ever walk the earth. In saying that, we must remember that walking with Christ doesnβt make any human perfect in any way. Nor does it make us βbetter thanβ any other human on earth. It does however, mean that we should do our level best to represent Him in every way to the best of our abilities. When we do wrong or say wrong, especially when upset, angered, or frustrated, we must repent and ask forgiveness from God and the person weβve offended intentionally or unintentionally.
Repentance (turning from wickedness and seeking Gods forgiveness) is something that we must do moment to moment on the daily. Then we must apologize to those that weβve hurt, whether it be an intentional hurt or not! People know Christianβs by how we treat others, not by mere words alone. Words can be lies used to get something or to make a person seem like they are one way when truly they arenβt that way at all. Lies are NEVER good! A persons actions, whether hurtful or not, speak louder volume than words ever will. Donβt let your actions hinder another persons walk that is still growing in the areas you may have already matured in. We each grow at different paces. We each have our own βdemonsβ, and/or faults, that we battle on the daily.
Donβt be afraid or ashamed to admit failure and repent from it. Donβt be afraid to admit failure to another human being that youβve wronged either. It is okay to say βIβm sorry! I screwed upββ¦.(for me)once AGAIN! Weβre ALL human and WE ALL screw up and make mistakes.
Tree of Memories
When my two kids were home, I looked forward to decorating, inside and out, each and every holiday season. October 1st began the decorating season in our household. I loved putting the βblow upsβ in the yard and changing the inside just enough to show each holiday off as a family to enjoy together.
When the day after Thanksgiving came around it was time to begin decorating our Christmas tree. Their dad and I always put the tree up together and weβd get it wrapped with its garland until our kids were old enough to help. Then Iβd sit in the floor and carefully pull out each ornament to make sure each one had a hook or ribbon to be hung with. As I would hand them off to each child and their dad for them to hang on the tree, I had the pleasure of sitting and enjoying my view of them from the floor. Thatβs a treasured memory in my mind each and every Christmas season now that both kids are grown, married, and have a child of their own. I sometimes wonder if they, once their children are old enough, will carry on any of the traditions that we had created together when they were growing up at home.
As an empty nester now, each year I see so many different themes of beautifully decorated Christmas trees and I think to myself βmaybe this year Iβll do something different with mineβ but I canβt bring myself to do it. Once the decorations for each holiday has been gotten out of storage, there go all of my memories, and I decide to keep my tree decorated exactly how itβs been decorated each year previously only to add one or two ornaments for that particular year.
Such lonesome frustration comes up during the process and begins to create a feeling of dread and why bother when no one is here to enjoy it with these days.
My thoughts and feelings are so different than they used to be. Now I have wishes and/or prayers that my husband, kids, and grand kids could be home especially this time of year to enjoy the process with, that I almost decide to not even decorate at all. As if the part of digging all of the decorations out of the garage isnβt painful enough, thereβs the putting the tree together and making sure itβs all connected correctly. Then plugging it in to see the beauty of the lights come to life, thankfully my tree has the lights already on it, only to begin separating the branches as to fill in the βbigβ holes. Now begins the true headache of separating each ornament and finding the hook that I purposely left on it while disassembling the previous year.
While separating each ornament is not my favorite thing to do, each year I am reminded of so many memories that come back to life in my mind all over again; memories that are not a part of my day to day living anymore. While carefully hanging each ornament on just the right branch to be sure it hangs properly, itβs placement on each branch is very important to me. The ornament has to be hung in such a way to display the correct side of the ornament and not spin around to face the inside of the tree. While the tree topper is not the same each year, it has to be placed in just the right way to be seen when looking directly on the βfront sideβ. Once the decorating is complete with the mess is all cleaned up, only then do I get to enjoy the full beauty of it all as a whole.
I love sitting, as close as my furniture placement allows, beside my beautifully decorated Christmas tree and embracing each and every memory thatβs been made over the years. My all time favorite ornaments are the ones that are homemade by each child of mine. I look forward to those that I pray to receive from each grand child to be added some day. Each and every ornament placed on my tree brings back a different memory to the frontal lobes of my mind thatβs been filed away with the packing it all up the year before.
So while the dread of putting all the decorations out without my family together isnβt always enjoyable for me, once itβs completed, thereβs nothing I enjoy more than sitting beside my very own tree in complete silence with only the lights blinking in the darkness of the room and looking at each individual ornament only to revisit its purpose and meaning for being hung on that branch. There is no other theme that I can visualize for my Christmas tree of memories.
So tell me, what does your Christmas tree mean to you?
2021 Memorial Day
I hope we all enjoy our Memorial Day but please donβt say to have a happy one.
Itβs not such a βHappyβ day for oh so many of those loved ones left behind. I pray that each one of them have peace in their hearts knowing their soldier, marine, airman, etc., died knowing the sacrifices they chose would forever reign. I would to say a heartfelt thank you to them all.
Relationships
I watched a movie this evening that I had watched before but forgotten most of the scenes of. After it started I remembered the story line but decided to watch it again anyway just to refresh my memory of how it all played out. Plus, I figured, given that itβs also a comedy itβs a win win cuz who doesnβt love to laugh right!?!
Without going into the name of it, itβs actors, etc., Iβll attempt to sum it up in a brief explanation, to the best of my ability, and make the point that I got out of it.
The movie from my prospective, in short, is about a woman that has excelled in her career without having had much education at all. However, in her attempt to βclimb the ladderβ of her success it seems she had hit a rather unremovable road block. Her life long bff helps persuade her into taking a job that she had acquired through lies about her achievements. So while moving out the door of her stale career path and heading into a remarkable world of opportunity that turned out to be, in the end, the best thing that had ever happened to her sheβs had a HUGE encounter with someone from her past. While falling in love with her new found daughter, sheβd given up for adoption in her teenage years, she seems to have lost any future with the love of her life and boyfriend of five years. However, her career is at an all time high until…all the lies and hidden secrets begin to unravel.
Of course Iβm leaving out the majority of the movie as to not ruin it for any of you that havenβt watched it. If you have watched it then youβll know the movie Iβm writing about and may decide to watch again yourself.
Now, stick with me and letβs move on.
The moral I got from the movie is sort of a βpunch lineβ said during the movie by the boyfriend. Their relationship began on a lie, or rather a hidden secret that she never told him about, and one that she similarly repeats in the overwhelming love that sheβs acquired for her new found daughter.
βNo relationship based on lies will ever surviveβ packs a powerful punch to me. It is what the boyfriend says to her at one point during the movie. That statement has resonated with me ever since I heard him say it while watching the movie. Itβs on repeat in my brain now as Iβve been pondering why itβs stuck there.
So letβs now shift from the movie and into my own lifeβs relationships. Again, without going into extreme details and, of course, no names will be given but it has given me one of those βπ‘β moments as it plays over and over again in my brain.
It has become one of those βTADAAAAAβ moments to me all of a sudden but I now understand a particular relationship that Iβve been at such a loss about in my life for several years now. A relationship that started out beautifully but has become a thorn that I canβt seem to get to fester for healing. One that has destroyed a part of me that idk if Iβll ever be the same from. As I live and breathe itβs oxygen sucking toxicity at times, I have a love for it that is confusingly exhausting to me when I attempt to understand it. Itβs one of those love/hate relationships that tonight I FINALLY get. I finally understand it somewhat π Duh π€¦ββοΈ Itβs because ANY and all relationships built on lies will never last.
What a powerful statement that is.
Nehemiah
Have you ever read through the entire book of Nehemiah in the Bible?
Well, I hadnβt until tonight.
So so good!
In reading through Nehemiah tonight Iβve come to realize that lots of the same struggles I, and the world, face day to day is very similar to what they faced in the days Jesus walked the earth.
Is that not weirdly exciting to you! I mean we arenβt facing a single thing that hasnβt already been faced and walked through with God. Thatβs absolutely GOOD GOOD NEWS yβall!
Any-who; As I was reading, one of things that stuck out to me the most is how Nehemiah would pray before each response to the enemies. I highlighted each prayer he said so that I can read them easily, especially at a quick glance.
Oh how I pray I can be more like Nehemiah, not only in his praying but in his faithfulness to God Almighty.
βOur God will fight for us!β 4:20b
What a great role model.
Below is my favorite prayer that I read in the book of Nehemiah. I pray that it blesses you as it did me.
Be sure to read the entire book as not to pick and choose the scriptures out of context.
Peace and blessings to ya, Louann
Thanksgiving 2020
In light of the year itβs been, this Thanksgivingβs βthankful forβsβ could be very different from years past. I know mine is but in everything we are to be thankful.
βRejoice always and delight in your faith; be unceasing and persistent in prayer; in every situation [no matter what the circumstances] be thankful and continually give thanks to God; for this is the will of God for you in Christ Jesus.β
ββ1 Thessaloniansβ¬ β5:16-18β¬ βAMPβ¬β¬
Scripture tells us that Jesus will have a second coming and that we should be prepared for that day, every day, because we do not know the day nor the hour of His return.
βBut of that [exact] day and hour no one knows, not even the angels of heaven, nor the Son [in His humanity], but the Father alone. For the coming of the Son of Man (the Messiah) will be just like the days of Noah.β
ββMatthewβ¬ β24:36-37β¬ βAMPβ¬β¬
So for 2020βs world changing year, I am thankful that Jesus has given me a second (multiple) chance (chances) to get my affairs in order. While I am saved, this trying year has taught me that I need to prepare more than ever for Jesusβ return. Some things I thought were important to me arenβt as important as I thought while other things I thought werenβt so important are very important. Thank you Jesus for never giving up on me!
So, what are you thankful for this year? Comment below…
Broken and Beautiful
Kelly Clarkson sings a song called βBroken and Beautifulβ and it is so relatable for me because I feel so broken, most days, these days BUT GOD and loved ones yβall; right!?!
I live with lots of chronic pain in my entire body, due to a few medical issues, that causes me to live with so much pain around the clock. Some days itβs βhide-ablyβ tolerable and some days it hurts to just wake up! Lots of days, I just wanna sleep and not wake up until the pain hurts no more.
So many Drβs!!!!! So many surgeries!!!!! So many βLetβs Try This!β So many βLets Run This Test.β So many βXrays and blood work!β So many unknowns but letβs keep seeking for answers until I am so sick of it all!!!!!π«
My most recent surgery, just 5 weeks ago, was for them to put in a nerve stimulator implant in my back. For those that donβt know what that is, itβs a machine thatβs basically an internal Tens Unit that blocks the nerve signals that go to my brain telling my brain that I feel pain. While it has helped, itβs not as helpful as weβd hoped. I would say itβs helped by maybe 30% when itβs turned on.
As I type this, itβs 2:20 A M and I canβt sleep. And since Iβm awake, I feel the aches and burns going on through out my entire body. In my shoulders, arms and hands I feel aches, throbs, burns, down to my finger bones hurting so bad at times that I just shake them off and hang them down to my sides for a few seconds of that momentary cold sensational relief. Some times I just wanna take em off and set em aside for a bit, swap em out with another pair, massage them momentarily, just something for some kind of relief! This is not what the stimulator is for, thatβs for my feet, legs, lower back, and hip pain (which didnβt help my left hip much at all). To be fair though, I rarely mention my shoulders, hands, and arm pains at all because thereβs so much other crap that hurts way worse.
I donβt know how to explain it, all I can say is I just HURT ALL OVER and I donβt know why. I donβt know how to explain it. I donβt want sympathy. I donβt want more freaking medicine. I donβt want another dang surgery. I rarely even want to be touched but I donβt want to be rude. I donβt want to seem mean to any one. I donβt want to hurt anyones feelings. I donβt want to hurt anymore PERIOD! So, to avoid things in this paragraph, I stay home a lot more.
So much of this unexplainable pain just makes me so danged irritable at times. I have gotten to where I just avoid being around people and certain situations all together. I rarely get out and about by myself anymore because I never know from moment to moment what Iβm going to be able to tolerate because the pain changes from day to day through out each and every single day. Simply put; I just hurt and I donβt want it to become an excuse for any thing in my life but itβs very debilitating at times. Thankfully though the migraines have almost completely stopped since my neck surgery was done in December of last year. So thatβs a positive praise! Thank you Jesus!
I just simply have βunexplainable chronic painβ thatβs un-relatable to anyone and everyone around me therefore itβs hard for you to understand. Just know that some days are good days for me and some days are bad but more often than not I just βfake the smilesβ to make it through the day with as little complaining as possible because I donβt want to be a burdensome person to anyone. However, I do love deeply and I want yβall to know that I truly appreciate ALL of the prayers and support from you all! I feel ya π€β₯οΈ
To those of you that do show me true genuine love and support (not just when ya want something) through all of the βmaybe thisβll helpβ processes that I continue to go through to find relief, I love you from the depth of my being and I apologize for not being able to physically help any of you but I do pray that Iβm there for you, as you are for me, to the best of my abilities because without God and yβall I donβt know how Iβd cope with this life.
So thanks for just being your true selves yβall π #ILYMTTYBLTTβ€οΈ
Purpose for Pain
When we take our eyes off Jesus and focus on self, most of this worldly pain is unbearable.
We must continue the path that God has us on because only He knows the lessons we are to learn and the many lives thatβll be touched by our obedience to Him.
Pain hurts, no matter the reasoning! The lack of understanding that we have toward said pain is why we begin to question God and what Heβs allowing to take place in our lives. Itβs not until we begin to fully trust Him that the pain becomes tolerable.
Keep your eyes off the world! Stay true to who you are in Christ! While things wonβt always make sense, itβll always be worth it because thereβs always life lessons to learn thatβll strengthen our trust and faith in Jesus.
Heartbroken
I donβt know how Iβm suppose to feel but I can tell you how I do feel.
A couple of days ago now the news was shared, on a Facebook group that Iβm in, about a wreck that took place locally. There were only four comments posted before the comment thread had been turned off as to not allow any more comments, yet the headline simply read βCar Accidentβ with the picture below attached to it.
Pick up truck vs car.
Accidents, in many forms, come about so frequently these days that I never stop to ponder any more if it could be anyone that I may know. I just always have the mind set, with technology today, that surely Iβd know by now if it was anyone that Iβm close to or related to.
When I read headlines and/or comments about anything like this that takes place, I immediately feel sad for those involved, in any way, but I will usually pray something simple like βGod please be with those affected by this and allow them to all be okayβ and scroll on as I did with this one.
When my daughter was little she was very active in little league softball, summer league tournament softball, Jr High and High school softball, as well as dance, and even cheerleading. All the way up through her senior year she remained very active in softball and dance, in any way she possibly could, because they were her two favorite things to do. So there were so many of her coaches, teachers, class mates, and even parents that have touched my life and have remained a part of my heart even after all of these years.
Through out my daughters upbringing, she is now 23 and married herself, many of her classmates will forever remain in my heart as Iβve been able to share in their own upbringing and life experiences not only through real life but also through social media life. This allows me to still be able to smile for the joys in their lives and makes me feel that I still get to be a small part of their own life happenings. Through this, even when they donβt know it, Iβm cheering them on like I used to do from the side lines and I still get to witness and share in their own life happiness. Thatβs one of the biggest perks of social media in my opinion.
But rarely do I get to witness or get to be a small part of their heartbreaks and life shattering moments. This is because most people, me included, donβt like to share the true vulnerable parts of their lives for the world to see. We donβt want to let people see inside of our pain and heartaches because they would for sure judge us. Plus that would taint our own outward image of ourselves that we want people to see right. Not that itβs a bad thing necessarily, itβs just how life works for so many of us in todayβs world.
As Iβm typing this, through so many tears flowing down my face, my own heart feels shattered into many pieces for one particular young lady and her family that touched my heart from my daughters upbringing. She has been a part of my heart from my daughters very first year of little league softball. βGod please continue to wrap Your arms around them all as they need You now more than ever before!! In Jesus name I pray, Amen!β
Anyway, when I read that βCar Accidentβ headline never did I imagine that one of my daughters classmates lives, especially one that I have personally loved since they were in elementary school as well as loving her parents still to this day, would be changed forever!!
Not only are her and her fiancΓ© new parents together but, after having read so many Facebook posts and comments, it seems as if they were the light of one anotherβs world. It appears as if theyβve been through so much with one another, good and bad, in such a short amount of time.
BUT GOD YALL!
It appears as if theyβve been able to overcome the world together with God as their anchor. God mustβve continued to bring them back to one another because, the way I understand what I was reading typed in their own words, itβs as if God intervened for their relationship to be. God mustβve brought them back to a sense of forgiveness and security with another because He completely healed their relationship for reasons unbeknownst to many of us looking into theirs lives through Facebook. Itβs as if God continued to carry them through all the heartache and love the two of them have for one another and even gave them a beautiful baby girl to cherish together in that love. Both of them seem to give God all of the glory for their successful relationship and now parenthood as well.
And as I scrolled through Facebook, two days later now, for reasons that we are never meant to question or understand the three of them were involved in this car accident together as one happy little family only for the young man not to make it!?!
Like βWHATβ!?!
Instinctively I want to know why. I want to know what happened. I want the young lady to know how much I love her. I want her parents to know my heart is shattered with them. I want to know so much, as do so many others, but God doesnβt work the way we want Him to. He doesnβt allow us to know so many things because we wouldnβt be able to handle the answers given to us.
I donβt believe that God βallowsβ bad things to happen to us but I do believe that everything that happens to us, God uses for good.
So as I type this through the tears and continue to pray for all involved in any minuet way, the thing I want shared most of all, is that only God knows the answers to our why. Only God knows our future. Only God knows how long we get to live and love those that we do. Only God knows why bad things happen to good people every single day. Only God knows ALL things because we arenβt suppose to know! We couldnβt handle to know the answers to every why question that we have. What I do know is that, once the young lady heals and is released from the hospital, she and their daughter are gonna be okay…eventually.
Their baby girl was unharmed physically but she will forever now have to grow up without her biological father and the perks of having him be a active part in her life. So I pray that she grows up to know and cling to the only Father that sheβll ever need and thatβs God The Father.
More of what I do know is that this family is a God fearing family that loves the Lord, even through their heartaches, with ever ounce of their being. I do know that their church family and community of loved ones will shower them with such agape love that they will overcome this tragedy and be stronger in their faith because of it. I do know that God will continue to help them heal as a family together. I do know that I am a better person having been able to know them and witness how they love God so deeply in their own walks of life. I do know that I am thankful that God put them in our lives so many years ago. And I do know that I will continue to pray for them, as well as everyone affected by this car accident, with every thought of them that I have.
My thoughts, prayers, and love go out to each of them as I continue to love and pray for them from a distance!
Worship at Home
I woke up this morning with the song βBuild My Lifeβ by Housefires in my heart. I donβt know about you but when I wake up with songs in my head like this, I have to listen to it multiple times right then because, to me, I take it as a sign from Holy Spirit that the lyrics are what Heβs speaking to me in that moment.
Thereβs nothing like hearing from God through Holy Spirit!
What greater way to commune with God than worshipping our Lord in privacy, just you and Him, in your room. No eyes watchin you, just you and Holy!! DONβT WORSHIP FOR SHOW YALL! IF YOU CAN WORSHIP IN CHRUCH BUILDING BUT CANβT WORSHIP IN PRIVATE, CHRCK YOUR HEART!
To me, it is sooooo much greater to worship our Lord and Savior in private yβall. Thereβs just a movement that is so powerful that it makes me cry, smile, laugh out loud, or fall to my knees in my prayer. Thereβs just nothing like feeling in tune with Jesus in private!
Once we build our foundation on the true roots of God Almighty, we canβt be shaken. No pain in the world, no holes in your heart, no ignorance of human, no feelings of not being worthy, no sadness in the world, nothin of man kind can tear us down!! Donβt turn your eyes from Jesus! Focus on The Holy Spirit that God fills us with, instead of the aches and pains in day to day life! Live for Jesus, not your kids, not work, not anything of this world!!! Live for Jesus each and every day and He will fill you with whatβs needed! MAKE IT A FIRM FOUNDATION in Christ!! Plant the roots so deep in Jesus that not even your kids can reap benefits of hurting you anymore!!
Donβt allow any pain in your heart (what ever that is for you) to take over the roots in Christ!! Strengthen your roots in Christ by reading His Word and praising Him in worship!!
HOLY THERE IS NO ONE LIKE YOU; THERE IS NONE BESIDE YOU; FILL US WITH YOUR HEART LORD!!!
SHOW US ALL LORD!!! SHOW US WHO YOU ARE DURING THE TRIALS OF LIFE!!!!! HELP US TO PUT OUR TRUST IN YOU AND NOT BE SHAKEN!!! MAINTAIN OUR ROOT SYSTEM WITH YOUR LOVE!!! IN JESUS NAME, AMEN!!!
Just Venting
Can I just be honest for a secβ¦.prob piss some of ya off but, ya know, THATβS WHAT I DO anyway right so I might as well be honestβ¦if ya love me, ya know my heart is always in the right place. Youβll either let it roll off or let it stick to ya. Itβll either make sense to you or not. And if it really pisses ya off, I just wonβt hear from ya again right!?!
Itβs what evvvssssssβ¦
Any who, Iβve just watched this #RedNoseDay fundraiser and I love the comedy and the laughter it created this year. Itβs really been very enjoyable to watch. Every year millions of dollars are raised to help children in need around the world and thatβs great yβall, seriously Iβm all for that! Kids do need help from adults every single day!
Moving onβ¦
I get that #covid19 is horrible and itβs killing many people world wide (fact is, itβs not killing as many as whatβs being reported because people every where are admitting to lying about it for the gain of money from the government) BUT WHERE ARE THE CELEBRITIES FOR HELPING THOSE DYING FROM ABUSE, SUICIDE, THOSE BABIES (HUMANS TOO) DYING FROM ABORTION, DYING FROM CAR WRECKS, DYING FROM OTHER ILLNESSES BESIDES CANCER(always helped and talked about. I donβt mean that derogatory; itβs a good thang), THAT LIST COULD GO ON AND ON AND ONβ¦I MEAN SERIOUSLY YALL, CβMON ALREADYβ¦ENOUGH WITH THE POUR PITIFUL CORONAVIRUS βINVASIONβ!!
PEOPLE EVERYWHERE ARE NOW USING CORONAVIRUS AS A TOOL AND TRYING TO MAKE THE WELL PEOPLE FEEL GUILTY OR SOMETHING FOR NOT BEING SICK! IT SUCKS!!! WE ALL KNOW IT SUCKS!!! BUT WE ARE SMART PEOPLES (well mostly)!! WE NOW KNOW WHAT HELPS AS A PREVENTATIVE! USE WHAT YOUβVE BEEN TAUGHT THAT WORKS!
It is sad that people are dying from it, but the MAJORITY of the ill people are NOT DYING from it. People everywhere are dying from much worse and the world hasnβt gone βALL OUTβ (literally) because of it. The world has kept going and living their lives because thatβs what we do.
Help those ya can, pray for everyone, use your dadgum BRAINS (that God gave you) and try to prevent yourself and your family from getting sick (which we do every single day anyway) from COVID, or any other airborne illness thatβs out there, and MOVE ON WITH LIFE!! If youβre alive, GOD AINβT DONE WITH YOU YET!!! GET OUT THERE AND MAKE SOMETHING OF YOURSELVES! HELP OTHERS!! GET HELP IF YA NEED TO!!!
SHARE THE GOOD NEWS OF JESUS WITH ANYONE THATβLL LISTEN!! LEAN OF GOD, NOT MANKIND!! MANKIND IS A DAILY LET DOWNβ¦.GOD WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU NOR FORSAKE YOU!!
Ok, Iβm done now. I feel better getting that off my chest.
Peace and blessings to yβall.
Good night!
Dreams
Do you believe that dreams mean something? I know some people that do and some people that donβt. Some dreams are so real sometimes that Iβve woke myself up, more than once, crying real tears. Tonight I had a strange one. It seemed so real during the dreaming time that when I finally woke up, or got woken up I should say, itβs left me scratching the top of my head wondering what it means.
I wonder why we dream at all? Are they significantly purposeful ya think? Do they truly have meanings behind them?
Most nights I donβt have any dreams at all. Some nights Iβll have several in one night. Then thereβs those that leave such an impression that it keeps me awake for a while before I can go back to sleep. Then thereβs the very few that have left me thinkin on them for days on end.
Tonight it was one of those thatβs got me thinkin, staying awake talking to God, and now writing, typing actually, it down for yβall to ponder with me.
Today was like any other day I suppose. My husband and I spent the day together. He went to town this morning to have the oil changed in our car but was back home before I woke up. Heβs an early riser ALL THE TIME! I, on the other hand, enjoy sleeping in. I donβt like to be woke up. Iβd rather sleep until my body decides itβs had enough rest for one day. Once I did wake up though, we did our usual just hangin out around the house together kinda day. He even cooked us a wonderful supper this evening. We didnβt watch anything out of the norm on tv. Every Friday and Saturday night we watch Live PD then go to bed.
I canβt think of any reason to have the kind of dream that I had, especially to have been woken up by my husband. He said I was hollering for him so loudly that it woke him up. In my dream I know I was trying to yell and couldnβt but I didnβt know it was a dream until he woke me up.
We have two recliners side by side in our living room and, in my dream, I was still in mine but my husband had already laid down. In our bedroom we have a small window unit in and I knew Iβd need to holler loud enough for him to hear me over the unit so I was trying to scream but nothing was coming out. It was so weird! It was like I was out of my body hovering over myself and I could see everything so clearly. I was in my recliner and the enemy himself was holding me down and covering my mouth. My entire body was like jello. I couldnβt move! I couldnβt talk! And I sure enough couldnβt scream! I kept trying. I tried to get up only to be shoved back down. I was trying to lift my arms and they literally, from the top view, looked like an episode of Sponge Bob Square Pants where his arms were just wavy. I had no control over them. I finally began trying to shout rebukes in the name of Jesus and I slowly began to regain control over myself. I began to sing βJesus Loves Meβ as loud and mumbling as possible. The more I said Jesus and sang out loud, even though my words werenβt clear, the less the enemy had control over me. I was FINALLY free enough to stand to my feet. Once I stood up I said βSatan you must flee from me IN THE NAME OF JESUS because you have no control over meβ and just like that, he fled. Then I began yelling for my husband again and thatβs when he woke me up because he heard me in real life yelling his name. He asked if I was alright and told me I mustβve been dreaming then he went right back to sleep and I canβt.
I donβt know how to interpret dreams but there was one man in the Bible named Joseph that could. I wonder what heβd tell me my dream meant?
Frustrating Day
My morning started off pretty good. My husband and I got up and prepared to head out for the hour and a half trip to see my Rheumatologist but we were quickly halted when my husband found that our water heater had been leaking. Thankfully he seen it before we had a complete mess on our hands. The drain pan was almost to the rim full of water. It would not have made it another week until he got back so, after a few calls, he got in touch with a plumber that could replace it TODAY! WooHoo, thank ya Lord! So we gather what info we need from the old one in order to buy a new one.
We finish getting ready to go and head out.
Next stop, Dr office.
That appointment was also a frustrating ordeal. First my husband wasnβt allowed to even go inside with me, due to this covid19 crap, then the lab tech chased a vein in my right arm for a good five minutes before deciding to try my left arm for a good vein. Of course she got it the first stick only for something goofy to happen and her wind up having to chase that vein too for some reason. BUT she was finally able to get her three tubes of blood from that arm so thatβs good. The tech was very nice and apologetic during it all, which I greatly appreciated, so that was helpful in keeping my frustration at a minimal. I even told her it was fine, no need to apologize because it just happens that way some times and she appreciated my understanding.
Next stop is Loweβs for our brand new water heater. So thankful that we had the means necessary in order to purchase a new one but this too took longer than expected. The gentleman that helped us was very nice and LOVED to chit chat. After finally getting what we needed the nice gentleman even helped my husband get it outside and into the back of our pick up.
So, off we go for our journey back home because the plumber we were able to get in touch with will have his βhandsβ to meet us there. Once the two gentlemen got the tank drained and outside, they began the install of the new one. BUT, you guessed it, they have some unexpected issues with the install and it is now going to take way longer than expected to complete the job.
Thankfully, once they are complete and outta here, all is well once again.
UNTIL it isnβt.
As I began to clean up the mess, not a big one, left behind from the job that has taken several hours to complete, I find that the new water heater is now leaking. I call the plumber and after a few βdiscussionsβ on a few different calls, we both agree that itβll be fine to wait til morning for them to come back and see whatβs happening now.
So my husband is back where he needs to be for work and I am off to bed to begin my morning in the morning, once more, with the water heater situation.
Moral of this story you may ask……..I just felt like sharing part of my very frustrating day with yβall and also to share that SATAN DID NOT WIN TODAY!!
Iβm now off to lay my frustrations down at the feet of Jesus and have a great night of peaceful rest in spite of my frustrating day.
Hopefully yβall can do the same and have a good night!
Life and Love 