Prayer for my kiddos

Now I lay me down to sleep. I pray to the Lord my soul to keep. If I should die before I wake. I pray to the Lord my soul he take. If I should die before morning sun. Y’all always remember this mommas fun love. It’s always in your hearts so deep. Should I die in my sleep. Amen! Toodle Lou tum tums. Razzle berries. Amen. I LOVE YOU’S!!! πŸ’‹ πŸ’‹ πŸ€— πŸ«‚

Memorial Day 2022

Thank you to those that sacrificed the ultimate to keep our freedoms. May we all keep their loved ones in our thoughts and prayers always.

Never Forgotten πŸ™

Prayer

I found this prayer on Pinterest and wanted to share it on my blog for anyone that it might help.

πŸ™ AMENπŸ™

π™΄πšŸπš’πš• π™»πšžπš›πš”πšœ

πšƒπš‘πšŽπš›πšŽ πš’πšœ 𝚜𝚘 πš–πšžπšŒπš‘ πšŽπšŸπš’πš• πš’πš— πšπš‘πšŽ πš πš˜πš›πš•πš 𝚝𝚘𝚍𝚊𝚒! π™½πš˜ πš˜πš—πšŽ πš’πšœ 𝚜𝚊𝚏𝚎 πšπš›πš˜πš– πš’πš’𝚜 πš›πšŠπšπš‘. π™ΏπšŽπš˜πš™πš•πšŽ πšŒπš‘πšŽπšŠπš, πš•πš’πšŽ, πšŠπš—πš πšœπšŒπšŠπš– πšπš‘πšŽπš’πš› 𝚠𝚊𝚒 πš’πš—πšπš˜ πšπš‘πšŽ πš’πšπš—πš˜πš›πšŠπš—πš πš–πš’πš—πšπšŽπš. 𝙸 πšπš˜πš—’𝚝 πš–πšŽπšŠπš— πš’πšπš—πš˜πš›πšŠπš—πšŒπšŽ πš’πš— 𝚊 πš‹πšŠπš 𝚠𝚊𝚒. π™Έπš πš’πšœ πš–πšŽπšŠπš—πš πš‘πšŽπš›πšŽ 𝚊𝚜 πšžπš—πš”πš—πš˜πš πš— πš˜πš› πš—πš˜πš πš”πš—πš˜πš πš’πš—πš πšŠπš‹πš˜πšžπš πšœπš˜πš–πšŽπšπš‘πš’πš—πš. π™Έπšπš—πš˜πš›πšŠπš—πšŒπšŽ πš’πšœ πšŽπšŠπšœπš’πš•πš’ πš–πšŠπš—πš’πš™πšžπš•πšŠπšπšŽπš πšŠπš—πš πšŒπš˜πš—πšπš›πš˜πš•πš•πšŽπš πš‹πš’ πš πš’πšŒπš”πšŽπšπš—πšŽπšœπšœ πš’πš— πš˜πšπš‘πšŽπš›πšœ.

π™Έπš— 𝚝𝚘𝚍𝚊𝚒𝚜 πš πš˜πš›πš•πš 𝚘𝚏 πšπšŽπšŒπš‘πš—πš˜πš•πš˜πšπš’, πš’πš πš’πšœ πš˜πšžπš› πš“πš˜πš‹ 𝚝𝚘 πš™πš›πš˜πšπšŽπšŒπš πš˜πšžπš›πšœπšŽπš•πšŸπšŽπšœ, πšŠπš—πš πš˜πš—πšŽ πšŠπš—πš˜πšπš‘πšŽπš›, 𝚊𝚜 πš‹πšŽπšœπš 𝚠𝚎 πšŒπšŠπš— πšπš›πš˜πš– πšœπšžπšŒπš‘ πšπšŽπšŒπšŽπš’πšπšπšžπš•πš•πš—πšŽπšœπšœ πšŠπš—πš πšžπšπš•πš’πš—πšŽπšœπšœ πšπš‘πšŠπš πš’πšœ πš’πš— πšπš‘πšŽ πš πš˜πš›πš•πš 𝚠𝚎 πšŠπš›πšŽ πšπš˜πš›πšŒπšŽπš 𝚝𝚘 πš•πš’πšŸπšŽ πš’πš—.

π™½πš˜πš πšŠπš•πš πšŠπš’πšœ πš’πšœ πš’πš 𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚒 𝚝𝚘 πš‹πšŽπš•πš’πšŽπšŸπšŽ πšπš‘πšŠπš πšœπš˜πš–πšŽπš˜πš—πšŽ πš‘πšŠπšœ πš–πšŠπšπšŽ 𝚊 πšπš˜πš˜πš• 𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚒𝚘𝚞 πš‹πšžπš πš’πš πš‘πšŠπš™πš™πšŽπš—πšœ 𝚝𝚘 πšπš‘πšŽ πš‹πšŽπšœπš 𝚘𝚏 𝚞𝚜. π™Έπš πš’πšœ πš—πšŽπšŸπšŽπš› 𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚒 𝚝𝚘 πšŠπšπš–πš’πš πš–πš’πšœπšπšŠπš”πšŽπšœ 𝚠𝚎’𝚟𝚎 πš–πšŠπšπšŽ πšπš›πš˜πš– πšœπšžπšŒπš‘ πš’πšπš—πš˜πš›πšŠπš—πšŒπšŽ 𝚘𝚏 πšπš‘πšŽ πšœπš’πšπšžπšŠπšπš’πš˜πš—, πš‹πšžπš πš’πš πš‘πšŠπš™πš™πšŽπš—πšœ 𝚝𝚘 πš™πšŽπš˜πš™πš•πšŽ πšπšŠπš’πš•πš’ πšŠπš›πš˜πšžπš—πš πšπš‘πšŽ πš πš˜πš›πš•πš. π™΄πš–πš‹πšŠπš›πš›πšŠπšœπš–πšŽπš—πš & πšπšŠπš’πš•πšžπš›πšŽ πšŠπš›πšŽ πš›πšŽπšŠπš• πšπšŽπšŽπš•πš’πš—πšπšœ πšπš‘πšŠπš πš‘πšŠπšŸπšŽ 𝚝𝚘 πš‹πšŽ πš˜πšŸπšŽπš›πšŒπš˜πš–πšŽ πš‹πš’ πš•πš˜πšŸπšŽ πšŠπš—πš πšŠπšπš–πš’πš›πšŠπšπš’πš˜πš— πšπš›πš˜πš– πšπš‘πš˜πšœπšŽ πš’πš— πš’πš˜πšžπš› πš’πš—πš—πšŽπš› πšŒπš’πš›πšŒπš•πšŽ πšπš‘πšŠπš πšŠπš›πšŽ πš πš’πš•πš•πš’πš—πš 𝚝𝚘 πšŽπš—πš•πš’πšπš‘πšπšŽπš— πšŠπš—πš πšπšŽπšŠπšŒπš‘ 𝚞𝚜 πšŠπš‹πš˜πšžπš πšπš‘πšŽ πšžπš—πš”πš—πš˜πš πš— πš‘πšŠπš™πš™πšŽπš—πš’πš—πšπšœ πšπš˜πš’πš— πš˜πš— πš’πš— πš˜πšžπš› πš˜πš πš— πš•πš’πšŸπšŽπšœ. πš‚πš˜πš–πšŽπšπš’πš–πšŽπšœ πš•πš˜πšŸπšŽπš πš˜πš—πšŽπšœ πšŒπšŠπš— 𝚜𝚎𝚎 πšπš‘πšŽ πš‘πšŠπš™πš™πšŽπš—πš’πš—πšπšœ 𝚘𝚏 πš πš‘πšŠπš 𝚠𝚎 πš˜πšžπš›πšœπš•πšŽπšŸπšŽπšœ πšŠπš›πšŽ πš‹πš•πš’πš—πšπšŽπš 𝚝𝚘. π™Έπš— πš•πš˜πšŸπšŽ, 𝚠𝚎 πšŠπš›πšŽ 𝚝𝚘 πšœπš™πšŽπšŠπš” πš πš‘πšŠπš 𝚠𝚎 𝚜𝚎𝚎 𝚊𝚜 πš˜πšžπšπšœπš’πšπšŽπš›πšœ πš•πš˜πš˜πš”πš’πš—πš πš’πš—. πš†πšŽ πšŠπš›πšŽ πš—πš˜πš πš‹πšŽ πš“πšžπšπšπšŽπš–πšŽπš—πšπšŠπš• πš’πš— πšŠπš—πš’ 𝚠𝚊𝚒 πš‹πšžπš πš˜πš—πš•πš’ 𝚝𝚘 πš‹πšŽ πšπšŽπš—πšžπš’πš—πšŽ πšŠπš—πš πš•πš˜πšŸπš’πš—πšπš•πš’ πšŒπš˜πš—πšŒπšŽπš›πš—πšŽπš. πš†πšŽ πšŠπš›πšŽ πšŠπš•πš• πšŒπšŠπš•πš•πšŽπš 𝚝𝚘 πš•πš˜πšŸπšŽ, πš‘πš˜πš—πš˜πš›, πšŠπš—πš πš›πšŽπšœπš™πšŽπšŒπš πš˜πš—πšŽ πšŠπš—πš˜πšπš‘πšŽπš›, πšŽπšœπš™πšŽπšŒπš’πšŠπš•πš•πš’ πš πš‘πšŽπš— 𝚠𝚎 πš—πšŽπšŽπš πš‘πšŽπš•πš™ πšŠπšπšπšŽπš› πš‘πšŠπšŸπš’πš—πš πš‹πšŽπšŽπš— πš–πšŠπš—πš’πš™πšžπš•πšŠπšπšŽπš πš’πš— πšœπšžπšŒπš‘ πšžπš—πšπš˜πš›πšŽπšœπšŽπšŽπš— 𝚠𝚊𝚒𝚜.

π™ΏπšŽπš˜πš™πš•πšŽ πšŠπš›πšŽ πšŒπš›πšžπšŽπš•. π™ΏπšŽπš˜πš™πš•πšŽ πšŠπš›πšŽ πšœπšŽπš•πšπš’πšœπš‘. π™ΏπšŽπš˜πš™πš•πšŽ πšŠπš›πšŽ πš•πš’πšŠπš›πšœ. π™ΏπšŽπš˜πš™πš•πšŽ πš πš’πš•πš• πš‘πšžπš›πš πš˜πš—πšŽ πšŠπš—πš˜πšπš‘πšŽπš›, πšœπš˜πš–πšŽ πšπš’πš–πšŽπšœ πš πš’πšπš‘ πš£πšŽπš›πš˜ πš›πšŽπš–πš˜πš›πšœπšŽ πšπš˜πš› πšπš‘πšŽπš’πš› πšŠπšŒπšπš’πš˜πš—πšœ. π™±πšžπš πš—πšŽπšŸπšŽπš› πš‹πšŽ 𝚜𝚘 πšπšŽπšœπš™πšŽπš›πšŠπšπšŽ πš˜πš› πšœπšπšŠπš›πšŸπšŽπš πšπš˜πš› πšŠπšπšπšŽπš—πšπš’πš˜πš— πšπš‘πšŠπš 𝚒𝚘𝚞’πš›πšŽ πš‹πš•πš’πš—πšπšŽπš πš‹πš’ 𝚒𝚘𝚞’πš›πšŽ πš˜πš πš— πšπšŽπšŽπš•πš’πš—πšπšœ 𝚘𝚏 πš‹πšŽπš’πš—πš “πšŒπš‘πš˜πšœπšŽπš—” πš‹πš’ 𝚊 πšœπšπš›πšŠπš—πšπšŽπš›, πšŽπšœπš™πšŽπšŒπš’πšŠπš•πš•πš’ πšŠπš— πš˜πš— πš•πš’πš—πšŽ πšœπšπš›πšŠπš—πšπšŽπš›. πš…πšžπš•πš—πšŽπš›πšŠπš‹πš’πš•πš’πšπš’ πšŠπš—πš πš•πš˜πš—πšŽπš•πš’πš—πšŽπšœπšœ πšŒπšŠπš— πšŒπš›πšŽπšŠπšπšŽ πš‹πš•πš’πš—πš πš’πšπš—πš˜πš›πšŠπš—πšŒπšŽ πšπš‘πšŠπš πš πš’πš•πš• πš–πšŠπš”πšŽ 𝚞𝚜 πšŠπš— 𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚒 πšπšŠπš›πšπšŽπš 𝚝𝚘 πš‹πšŽ πš™πš›πšŽπš’πšŽπš πšžπš™πš˜πš— πšπš›πš˜πš– πšπš‘πšŽ πšŽπš—πšŽπš–πš’.

π™°πš•πš πšŠπš’πšœ πš™πš›πšŠπš’ πšŠπš—πš πšœπšŽπšŽπš” π™Άπš˜πšπšœ πšŠπšπšŸπš’πšŒπšŽ πš‹πšŽπšπš˜πš›πšŽ πšŽπšŸπšŽπš› πšπšŽπšπšπš’πš—πš 𝚜𝚘 πš’πš—πšŸπš˜πš•πšŸπšŽπš πš’πš— πšπš‘πšŽπš’πš› πšπšŠπš–πšŽ πšπš‘πšŠπš 𝚒𝚘𝚞 𝚐𝚎𝚝 πš‹πš•πš’πš—πšπšŽπš πš‹πš’ πšπš‘πšŽπš’πš› πšπš•πš˜πš πš’πš—πš, πš–πšŽπšœπš–πšŽπš›πš’πš£πš’πš—πš πšπšŠπšŒπšπš’πšŒπšœ. πšƒπš‘πšŽπš— πšπš‘πšŽπš’ πšŠπš›πšŽ πšŠπš•πš•πš˜πš πšŽπš 𝚝𝚘 πš‹πšŽπšπš’πš— πš›πšŽπšŽπš•πš’πš—πš 𝚒𝚘𝚞 πš’πš— πšŠπš—πš πš’πš πš‘πšŠπš™πš™πšŽπš—πšœ 𝚜𝚘 𝚏𝚊𝚜𝚝 πšπš‘πšŠπš 𝚒𝚘𝚞 πšŒπš•πš’πš—πš πš˜πš— πšπš˜πš› πšπšŽπšŠπš› πš•πš’πšπšŽ.

πšπšŽπš–πšŽπš–πš‹πšŽπš›: π™Έπš πšœπš˜πš–πšŽπšπš‘πš’πš—πš πšœπšŽπšŽπš–πšœ 𝚝𝚘 𝚐𝚘𝚘𝚍 𝚝𝚘 πš‹πšŽ πšπš›πšžπšŽ, πš’πš πš™πš›πš˜πš‹πšŠπš‹πš•πš’ πš’πšœ.

π™½πšŽπšŸπšŽπš› πš‹πšŽ 𝚝𝚘 πšŠπšπš›πšŠπš’πš 𝚝𝚘 πšœπšŽπšŽπš” 𝚘𝚞𝚝 πšŠπšπšŸπš’πšŒπšŽ πšŠπš—πš πšœπšžπš™πš™πš˜πš›πš πšπš›πš˜πš– πš’πš˜πšžπš› πš’πš—πš—πšŽπš› πšŒπš’πš›πšŒπš•πšŽ 𝚘𝚏 πš•πš˜πšŸπšŽπš πš˜πš—πšŽπšœ. “𝚁𝚎𝚍 π™΅πš•πšŠπšπšœ” πšπšŽπšŽπš•πš’πš—πšπšœ πšŠπš›πšŽ πšπš’πšŸπšŽπš— 𝚝𝚘 𝚞𝚜 πšπš˜πš› πš›πšŽπšŠπšœπš˜πš—πšœ 𝚝𝚘 πš™πš›πš˜πšπšŽπšŒπš πš˜πšžπš›πšœπšŽπš•πšŸπšŽπšœ. πšˆπš˜πšžπš› πš’πš—πš—πšŽπš› πšŒπš’πš›πšŒπš•πšŽ πšŒπšŠπš— 𝚜𝚎𝚎 πšπš‘πš’πš—πšπšœ 𝚒𝚘𝚞 πšŒπšŠπš—’𝚝 𝚜𝚎𝚎 πšπš‘πš›πš˜πšžπšπš‘ πš’πš˜πšžπš› πš˜πš πš— πš‹πš•πš’πš—πšπš—πšŽπšœπšœ.

πšƒπš›πšžπšœπš π™Άπš˜πš, πšπš’πš›πšœπš πšŠπš—πš πšπš˜πš›πšŽπš–πš˜πšœπš, πš‹πšŽπšŒπšŠπšžπšœπšŽ π™·πšŽ πš πš’πš•πš• πš—πšŽπšŸπšŽπš› πš•πšŽπšŠπšŸπšŽ 𝚞𝚜 πš—πš˜πš› πšπš˜πš›πšœπšŠπš”πšŽ 𝚞𝚜. π™ΉπšŽπšœπšžπšœ πš’πšœ πšƒπ™·π™΄ π™Ύπ™½π™»πšˆ πš–πšŠπš— 𝚝𝚘 πšŽπšŸπšŽπš› πš•πš’πšŸπšŽ 𝚊 πš™πšŽπš›πšπšŽπšŒπš πš•πš’πšπšŽ πš’πš— πšπš‘πš’πšœ πšŽπšŸπš’πš• πš πš˜πš›πš•πš. π™΄πšŸπš’πš• πš•πšžπš›πš”πšœ πšŠπš›πš˜πšžπš—πš πš•πš˜πš˜πš”πš’πš—πš πšπš˜πš› πšŠπš—πš’πš˜πš—πšŽ πš πšŽπšŠπš” πšŽπš—πš˜πšžπšπš‘ 𝚝𝚘 πš‹πšŽ πšπšŽπšŸπš˜πšžπš›πšŽπš.

πšƒπš‘πšŽπš›πšŽ’𝚜 πšŠπš— πš˜πš•πšŽ πšœπšŠπš’πš’πš—πš πšπš‘πšŠπš 𝚐𝚘𝚎𝚜 πšœπš˜πš–πšŽπšπš‘πš’πš—πš πš•πš’πš”πšŽ πšπš‘πš’πšœ; “π™΅πš˜πš˜πš• πš–πšŽ πš˜πš—πšŒπšŽ πšœπš‘πšŠπš–πšŽ πš˜πš— 𝚒𝚘𝚞. π™΅πš˜πš˜πš• πš–πšŽ πšπš πš’πšŒπšŽ πšœπš‘πšŠπš–πšŽ πš˜πš— πš–πšŽ”. π™³πš˜πš—’𝚝 πš‹πšŽ πšπš˜πš˜πš•πšŽπš πš–πš˜πš›πšŽ πšπš‘πšŠπš— πš˜πš—πšŒπšŽ πš‹πš’ πšπš‘πšŽ πšœπšŠπš–πšŽ πšπšŠπš–πšŽ πš‹πšŽπš’πš—πš πš™πš•πšŠπš’πšŽπš πšŠπšπšŠπš’πš—πšœπš 𝚒𝚘𝚞. πš†πšŽ πšŠπš›πšŽ πšŠπš•πš• πš™πš˜πš—πšœ πšπš˜πš› πšπš‘πšŽ πš πš’πšŒπš”πšŽπš 𝚝𝚘 πšπš›πš’ πšŠπš—πš πšπšŠπš”πšŽ πšŒπš˜πš—πšπš›πš˜πš• πš’πš— πš˜πšžπš› πš˜πš πš— πšπšŠπš–πšŽ 𝚘𝚏 πš•πš’πšπšŽ.

πš‚πšπšŠπš’ 𝚏𝚘𝚌𝚞𝚜𝚎𝚍 πš˜πš— π™ΉπšŽπšœπšžπšœ πš’πšŠπš•πš•! π™·πšŽ πš’πšœ πšπš‘πšŽ 𝚠𝚊𝚒 πš–πšŠπš”πšŽπš›. π™·πšŽ πš’πšœ πšπš›πšžπšπš‘! π™·πšŽ πš’πšœ πš•πš’πšπšŽ! π™ΉπšŽπšœπšžπšœ πš’πšœ πšπš‘πšŽ πš˜πš—πš•πš’ 𝚠𝚊𝚒 𝚝𝚘 πš˜πšžπš› π™»πš˜πš›πš π™Άπš˜πš; πšƒπ™·π™΄ π™»π™Ύπšπ™³ 𝙢𝙾𝙳.

π™ΏπšŽπš›πšπšŽπšŒπšπš’πš˜πš— πš’πšœ πš’πš–πš™πš˜πšœπšœπš’πš‹πš•πšŽ πš‹πšžπš 𝚠𝚎 πš–πšžπšœπš πšœπšπš›πš’πšŸπšŽ πšπš˜πš πšŠπš›πš πš’πš πšŠπš—πš’ 𝚠𝚊𝚒.

π™·πš˜πš•πš πš’πš˜πšžπš› πš‘πšŽπšŠπš πšžπš™ πš‘πš’πšπš‘ 𝚊𝚜 𝚒𝚘𝚞 πš•πš˜πš˜πš” 𝚝𝚘 πšπš‘πšŽ πšœπš”πš’.

π™³πš˜πš—πš πšπš’πšŸπšŽ πšŽπšŸπš’πš• 𝚊 πšπš’πšπš‘πšπš’πš—πš πšŒπš‘πšŠπš—πšŒπšŽ 𝚝𝚘 πšπš›πš’πš™ πš˜πš—πšπš˜ 𝚒𝚘𝚞.

Day After…

This is what happens for me after an evening of enjoyment.

I feel like an old lady… πŸ˜‚

Heat Therapy

Met some family for dinner and I think the chair I used hates me! Back is not good today.

Bitterness

Did you know that bitterness is a legit emotion? I mean I’ve heard of it, of course, but never really understood it. And I still don’t. However, it is a true feeling that needs to be addressed in order to be able to overcome it. I will be studying more on this topic and hope to share some new insight into its true meaning and Gods way, through His word, on how to overcome it.

Stay tuned…

Scripture and Prayer

Exhausted

When I wake up feeling exhausted from a good nights sleep, I know what kinda day my body is going to have. I just want to climb back in bed and sleep it off but duty calls. I will go to work anyway with affirmation of thankfulness and joy to be alive to feel the pain.

Thank you Jesus for giving me another day to live for you and share you with others.

Hospital Week

It’s officially Friday (the 13th for you superstitious ones) y’all! πŸ™Œ

I WON!

This week was hospital week and I just so happen to work in a little rural hospital. Even though I work in the office part, I still got to be a part of the daily shenanigans.

We have two lovely souls that run our HR department and each day this week they had a sweet little something for the entire hospital. The theme for the week was travel. Each day we traveled to a different country. It was sure a fun week of daily games, food, drinks, and fun. We also played a week long bingo game. Fortunately, I did get a bingo on Thursday and was gifted a $25 gift card to Best Buy. I was so stoked that I actually won something. πŸ˜‚ Now to figure out what to buy with it πŸ€”

For todays finale they had breakfast for us all and a special β€œsurprise” if we wore our badge while getting our plate. I was very happily surprised when they were handing each one of us a gift certificate for gasoline! Y’all that is so HUGE for us employees and our tiny little hospital.

I just wanted to give a shout out to my hospital family, especially our HR department, for always showing us such appreciation. It’s the little things that keep us motivated to work hard, even through those frustrating days. Our CEO is so good to us all, from the bottom all the way up, and he is always showing us his appreciation.

Summer Heat

I don’t know about where you’re at but in Texas we’ve already got that summer heat goin on and it is way to soon!

Typically this time of year it starts mild and gradually heating us up in preparation for July and August. This year, however, we are having July and August in May and June as well πŸ₯΅

Praying for rain and no triple digit days.

Do you hate your life?

Someone told me they hate their life the other day. My response was well I don’t hate mine. I love my life! I really do.

Life is what you make of it. If you’re negative all the time and only focus on the negative things that happen every day then you’re going to think and produce negativity in everything you do and say. What you’re putting in, through tv, games, people you’re around, etc, if it’s rarely anything positive then you will only produce negative thoughts, behavior, and words say about yourself and to others.

I have told my kids their entire lives that you are who you run with because it’s so true. If you run with negative you’ll produce negative. In every single situation, whether it be good or bad, there is ALWAYS positive. We may not always be able to find it in the moment, but it’s always in there. Negativity is easy to find. Positive is harder so we must seek it out.

So, no matter what life throws your way, choose to be joyfully happy and find the positive in each situation, instead of focusing on the bad stuff and reproducing that.

πŸ˜ƒ Don’t Worry; Be Happy πŸ˜ƒ It really is a choice we get to make for ourselves.

Mothers Day 2022

Mother’s Days for me are a bit different from the traditional get togethers in celebration of Mom. I am still appreciated just from a distance. I know without a doubt that I am always loved, even when they aren’t allowing me into their lives for one reason or another.

Like any other family, we don’t always see eye to eye…but God right!?! β™₯️ God remains true to His promises so I just keep seeking for His Devine intervention and healing.

My babies and grand babies live thousands of miles away due to the military life they’ve chosen and I couldn’t be more proud of each one of them than I am today! And, while their dad and I didn’t choose this lifestyle for them we’ve always encouraged ALL of our babies, even our β€œnother” babies, to chase their dreams but to always chase after Gods will for their lives rather than their own. My motto for them, since they were very young, has been β€œalways do your very best and let God do the rest” but no matter where life takes any one them, I will forever be their biggest supporter.

My husband and I are blessed beyond belief!

It’s been a while…

Well I will be back at it, prayerfully. I took a long break from writing because what I want to write about, I think to my self that I probably shouldn’t. But it is my life and this is my blog so I can write about what’s happening in my life right!?!

Gonna keep praying about how and what to say but I am for sure ready to begin writing, journaling, blogging again.

Hurt Heart

Words hurt and can’t be taken back as I’ve learned the hard way for most of my adult life. The closer with Christ I learn to walk/live the statement in the photo has proven to be more and more accurate. We know a true Christian by how they act, respond, talk, live, etc. Jesus was the only perfect human to ever walk the earth. In saying that, we must remember that walking with Christ doesn’t make any human perfect in any way. Nor does it make us β€œbetter than” any other human on earth. It does however, mean that we should do our level best to represent Him in every way to the best of our abilities. When we do wrong or say wrong, especially when upset, angered, or frustrated, we must repent and ask forgiveness from God and the person we’ve offended intentionally or unintentionally.

Repentance (turning from wickedness and seeking Gods forgiveness) is something that we must do moment to moment on the daily. Then we must apologize to those that we’ve hurt, whether it be an intentional hurt or not! People know Christian’s by how we treat others, not by mere words alone. Words can be lies used to get something or to make a person seem like they are one way when truly they aren’t that way at all. Lies are NEVER good! A persons actions, whether hurtful or not, speak louder volume than words ever will. Don’t let your actions hinder another persons walk that is still growing in the areas you may have already matured in. We each grow at different paces. We each have our own β€œdemons”, and/or faults, that we battle on the daily.

Don’t be afraid or ashamed to admit failure and repent from it. Don’t be afraid to admit failure to another human being that you’ve wronged either. It is okay to say β€œI’m sorry! I screwed up”….(for me)once AGAIN! We’re ALL human and WE ALL screw up and make mistakes.

Tree of Memories

My Tree of Memories

When my two kids were home, I looked forward to decorating, inside and out, each and every holiday season. October 1st began the decorating season in our household. I loved putting the β€œblow ups” in the yard and changing the inside just enough to show each holiday off as a family to enjoy together.

When the day after Thanksgiving came around it was time to begin decorating our Christmas tree. Their dad and I always put the tree up together and we’d get it wrapped with its garland until our kids were old enough to help. Then I’d sit in the floor and carefully pull out each ornament to make sure each one had a hook or ribbon to be hung with. As I would hand them off to each child and their dad for them to hang on the tree, I had the pleasure of sitting and enjoying my view of them from the floor. That’s a treasured memory in my mind each and every Christmas season now that both kids are grown, married, and have a child of their own. I sometimes wonder if they, once their children are old enough, will carry on any of the traditions that we had created together when they were growing up at home.

As an empty nester now, each year I see so many different themes of beautifully decorated Christmas trees and I think to myself β€œmaybe this year I’ll do something different with mine” but I can’t bring myself to do it. Once the decorations for each holiday has been gotten out of storage, there go all of my memories, and I decide to keep my tree decorated exactly how it’s been decorated each year previously only to add one or two ornaments for that particular year.

Such lonesome frustration comes up during the process and begins to create a feeling of dread and why bother when no one is here to enjoy it with these days.

My thoughts and feelings are so different than they used to be. Now I have wishes and/or prayers that my husband, kids, and grand kids could be home especially this time of year to enjoy the process with, that I almost decide to not even decorate at all. As if the part of digging all of the decorations out of the garage isn’t painful enough, there’s the putting the tree together and making sure it’s all connected correctly. Then plugging it in to see the beauty of the lights come to life, thankfully my tree has the lights already on it, only to begin separating the branches as to fill in the β€œbig” holes. Now begins the true headache of separating each ornament and finding the hook that I purposely left on it while disassembling the previous year.

While separating each ornament is not my favorite thing to do, each year I am reminded of so many memories that come back to life in my mind all over again; memories that are not a part of my day to day living anymore. While carefully hanging each ornament on just the right branch to be sure it hangs properly, it’s placement on each branch is very important to me. The ornament has to be hung in such a way to display the correct side of the ornament and not spin around to face the inside of the tree. While the tree topper is not the same each year, it has to be placed in just the right way to be seen when looking directly on the β€œfront side”. Once the decorating is complete with the mess is all cleaned up, only then do I get to enjoy the full beauty of it all as a whole.

I love sitting, as close as my furniture placement allows, beside my beautifully decorated Christmas tree and embracing each and every memory that’s been made over the years. My all time favorite ornaments are the ones that are homemade by each child of mine. I look forward to those that I pray to receive from each grand child to be added some day. Each and every ornament placed on my tree brings back a different memory to the frontal lobes of my mind that’s been filed away with the packing it all up the year before.

So while the dread of putting all the decorations out without my family together isn’t always enjoyable for me, once it’s completed, there’s nothing I enjoy more than sitting beside my very own tree in complete silence with only the lights blinking in the darkness of the room and looking at each individual ornament only to revisit its purpose and meaning for being hung on that branch. There is no other theme that I can visualize for my Christmas tree of memories.

So tell me, what does your Christmas tree mean to you?

Motto

β€œYour society values people by how much they have; ours by how much we give away”


I just heard this in a movie and it resonates with me that this should be the motto of every true Christian.

Ever Wonder?

Do you ever wonder what God means by something spoken to you by The Holy Spirit?

The other morning I was driving to work and decided to turn my radio off and ride to town in silence. I was simply talking out loud letting the Lord know that I was driving my 30 minute journey to work in silence with full expectation of hearing Him and nothing else. I stopped talking and simply listened. So often we are constantly listening to music, tv, etc, or surfing the web, Facebook, YouTube, etc and we forgot to simply listen to God. βœ‹ Anyone? 🀚

I turned around and pulled over to get this photo of Gods beauty.

So that particular morning I wanted to hear from only God. I’ve been, and continue, praying and seek His advice but I haven’t heard a response or maybe I just haven’t been listening for one. After have been driving for about ten minutes already in silence, I came to the point where I usually get to as the sun is in the process of rising. I turned and looked out my passenger window to see it’s beauty, as I always do, but that morning was different than any of them. That morning I seen the beams of light shining beautifully as the hint of sun was beginning to peek over the horizon. The grass glistened from the shine and the road seemed to never end. And it was in that very moment, that God spoke to me ever so plainly. Had I have been listening to the radio, as I do most every morning, I’d have probably missed it. I might’ve missed hearing The Lord over the radio chatter plainly speak the words β€œRise Up” to me through The Holy Spirit that dwells within me. And I’ve heard it every day since.

I sat and watched for a few minutes…

However, I’m not sure yet what exactly God is telling me by those two simple words. Who knew two words could be so hard to understand.

There are a few specific things I pray about and have for quite some time. I know that God is referencing my prayers but I just do not know how to β€œRise Up” exactly in the way God intends for me to.

I am now praying for clarity in His response, while listening more often, in total and complete silence.

Fork In The Road

Do you ever feel like you’re at a fork in your road of life and so fearful of picking the wrong path that you choose to stay straight?

I believe it’s the salad fork that has three prongs. While I’ve never understood the logic in the different prongs on forks, for this particular analogy I’m gonna choose the three pronged fork.

Suppose each individual prong is guiding you into different demential places of your life. For me, one prong continues on the path I’m on right now. I continue to follow it daily and do what is expected of me. Sure I’m happy on this path, because it makes everyone happy around me, but it’s kinda boring. That’s the middle prong. There’s no curves, it’s the strongest supported prong of the three, but it is very straight forward. Then there’s the option to choose the right prong. In the right direction, there’s a little bit of a curve but I’d be goin down a path that God has for me, which is ever changing and rarely seems to make sense to the humanist parts in me yet gets me excited about living. Then there’s a third prong that curves toward the left. Now that’s the prong that would definitely be most confusing to me. Following down the left prong would lead me in a direction that would destroy the very part of me that God wants to use. It would cause me to begin tearing apart at the seams little by little. I would eventually be led away from everything that I know and love. All of the β€œfamiliar” in life would be lost. Sure it’d be fun and adventurous for a time but eventually I’d get lonely and have regret. None of those attributes comes from God so I have no desire for that path. So in my fork in life there’s the one path that I know for sure I don’t ever wanna go down.

Now I’m left with only two prongs to choose from. There’s the path I’m on in the middle that is the most stable and less terrifying because I know what to expect on it and it’s comfortable. Then there’s the scary path for me. The one that I know I’m called to be on but am terrified to choose because of the fear of the unknown and I don’t know hows. I feel like I’d have no sense of direction but it’s the path of obedience and the one I should be on, even at the risk of failure.

While I do love change and challenges in life, the scariest change for me is the fear of losing those that I love and feeling like a failure all over again. In that fear, it keeps me on the path of least resistance. It also causes me to miss out on so many blessings that God has for me. I know He has blessings awaiting me because He has shown them to me. What I don’t know is how to let go and let God work His magic. How do I follow a path that I fear of messing up on? I don’t wanna let God down again. I don’t wanna fail with something He’s entrusted me with again.

How do I trust God more than I doubt myself? I allow myself to cause such self doubt that it has me paralyzed. Having such doubt and absolutely no confidence in myself of choosing the β€œright thing” from God, and knowing how to do what He’s requesting of me, that is keeping me on the middle prong in my own fork in the road.

2021 Memorial Day

Memorial Day

I hope we all enjoy our Memorial Day but please don’t say to have a happy one.

It’s not such a β€œHappy” day for oh so many of those loved ones left behind. I pray that each one of them have peace in their hearts knowing their soldier, marine, airman, etc., died knowing the sacrifices they chose would forever reign. I would to say a heartfelt thank you to them all.

Relationships

Even when it hurts…

I watched a movie this evening that I had watched before but forgotten most of the scenes of. After it started I remembered the story line but decided to watch it again anyway just to refresh my memory of how it all played out. Plus, I figured, given that it’s also a comedy it’s a win win cuz who doesn’t love to laugh right!?!

Without going into the name of it, it’s actors, etc., I’ll attempt to sum it up in a brief explanation, to the best of my ability, and make the point that I got out of it.

The movie from my prospective, in short, is about a woman that has excelled in her career without having had much education at all. However, in her attempt to β€œclimb the ladder” of her success it seems she had hit a rather unremovable road block. Her life long bff helps persuade her into taking a job that she had acquired through lies about her achievements. So while moving out the door of her stale career path and heading into a remarkable world of opportunity that turned out to be, in the end, the best thing that had ever happened to her she’s had a HUGE encounter with someone from her past. While falling in love with her new found daughter, she’d given up for adoption in her teenage years, she seems to have lost any future with the love of her life and boyfriend of five years. However, her career is at an all time high until…all the lies and hidden secrets begin to unravel.

Of course I’m leaving out the majority of the movie as to not ruin it for any of you that haven’t watched it. If you have watched it then you’ll know the movie I’m writing about and may decide to watch again yourself.

Now, stick with me and let’s move on.

The moral I got from the movie is sort of a β€œpunch line” said during the movie by the boyfriend. Their relationship began on a lie, or rather a hidden secret that she never told him about, and one that she similarly repeats in the overwhelming love that she’s acquired for her new found daughter.

β€œNo relationship based on lies will ever survive” packs a powerful punch to me. It is what the boyfriend says to her at one point during the movie. That statement has resonated with me ever since I heard him say it while watching the movie. It’s on repeat in my brain now as I’ve been pondering why it’s stuck there.

So let’s now shift from the movie and into my own life’s relationships. Again, without going into extreme details and, of course, no names will be given but it has given me one of those β€œπŸ’‘β€ moments as it plays over and over again in my brain.

It has become one of those β€œTADAAAAA” moments to me all of a sudden but I now understand a particular relationship that I’ve been at such a loss about in my life for several years now. A relationship that started out beautifully but has become a thorn that I can’t seem to get to fester for healing. One that has destroyed a part of me that idk if I’ll ever be the same from. As I live and breathe it’s oxygen sucking toxicity at times, I have a love for it that is confusingly exhausting to me when I attempt to understand it. It’s one of those love/hate relationships that tonight I FINALLY get. I finally understand it somewhat πŸ™„ Duh πŸ€¦β€β™€οΈ It’s because ANY and all relationships built on lies will never last.

What a powerful statement that is.